Night Changes// L.T AU

Chapter 14- finally

*** I hope you all had a great Halloween***

It was 3 in the morning and I found it hard to sleep as thoughts of Louis and Jake clouded my mind. I just want him to wake up and for Jake to be okay, I love them both and I wouldn't want this for either of them. And the more I thought about Lou, the more I thought Jake wasn't the one. Louis is such a light in this world and I'm so lucky to have met him. Jake was my future and I thought he was the one, but maybe he's not, maybe Louis is. I've never been more confused in my life, I love them both. They have similar personalities, I guess, they're both very different, too. I'm lucky to have met them both, but I'm also not in a way. It's hard to explain how I feel.

My head spun as I looked at the ceiling wishing sleep would take me away from this Goddamn world. But it didn't look like that would happen soon. My phone started beeping which made me jump a foot in the air. I answered it as my heart returned to its normal pace.

"Ashely," a voice cried out.

"What," I asked, rubbing my face still half asleep.

"He's awake, he's awake, the voice cried out again, finally my brain finally registered who it was.

"Jay, slow down," I finally spoke as my brain was still waking up.

"Oh I'm sorry, I forgot it's only like 3, but I felt I had to tell you immediately," she says her voice calmer.

"Do you want me to come to the hospital right now," I asked starting to pick out clothes.

I picked up pants I was assuming were black, but they could've been navy blue. So I put on the light causing me to squint my eyes.

"I'd like you to, but I see what time it is and I understand if you have to come later.

"It's really no problem, Jay, just give me an hour or so," I tell her, finally picking out an outfit.

"Okay see you then," she says finally hanging up.

I stumble through the pitch black house until I find the bathroom. I put the dimmest light on, trying to avoid burning my eyes some more. I peak in the shower, making sure there's soap, shampoo, and conditioner. I release a breath of relief as I see everything I was looking for is in their places. I turn the water on and wait a bit before stepping in, although a cold shower would definitely wake me up, it's definitely not a preference, I like any other person would rather have a warm shower.

I hummed to myself quietly as I lathered my body with soap, I could use a shave, not gonna lie, but I just didn't have the time. I looked away from the razor shaking my head, and continuing to grab the shampoo. Once it's in my hair I stepped back under the water. It rinsed out fairly quick and so did the conditioner, I turn the water off and grab a towel. I put my hair up in the towel as I slip on my pants, I strap my bra on and continue to brush my teeth. I squeeze my shirt on over my head. I finally take the towel out, I comb my hand through it gently. I take the blow dryer out of the draw and plug it in. I grab my brush and start to dry my hair. I know blow drying my hair is necessary, but it's so time consuming and annoying. If I'm not in a rush or don't have anything planned for the day, I try to avoid it. I don't understand how people blow dry it everyday, one of those people being my mom. She's a strange, but amazing women.

I admire her so much, I don't know how's she managed to have so many kids and raised them to be decent human beings.

With these thoughts in mind, I blow dried my hair, I didn't really style it though. There's no one I have to look good for and I doubt anybody would really give a shit what I look like at this time. I slipped on my jacket as I sent a quick text to Jay, informing her I was on my way.

I didn't wait for a reply and started my car right away, hopefully the roads weren't that bad. I mean yeah, I'd expect a few cars, but not that many.

I got onto the highway in no time, and just as I suspected there wasn't that many cars.

The hospital parking lot wasn't crowded either, the lobby was almost silent.

It took me around 5 minutes to reach Louis' room, I couldn't wait to see him. I've missed him so much. I've missed his quirky and bubbly personality, his blue eyes, and everything about him really.

I know he's not going to be completely himself because he's been out for awhile, I know it's going to take some time to heal and get better. Although it's a long road to recovery, it's not impossible.

I softly knocked on the door, it was kind of eerie how silent the hallways were.

Louis glanced at me as I entered the room.

"Hey Louis," I greeted sitting next to him.

He gave me a smile, not saying anything.

He had a trach in his throat, so I didn't expect him to say anything anyway.

He put his finger over the small tube, "I'm happy you're here," he said softly.

My heart exploded, "I'm happy I'm here, too," I told him grabbing his hand.

"I'm kind of tired," he muttered.

"Me too," Jay responded.

"We can continue this later, I said settling back in the seat.

Jay agreed and laid down on one of the other chairs.

I held onto Louis' hand as I drifted off once again.

***** merry late Christmas and happy New Years!! I'm really sorry I haven't updated in like a million years, I hope you can forgive me. I've just been so caught up in school.