Just Desserts

Chapter 14

Gabriel

As soon as the front door shut behind me I closed my eyes and slid down the wall. I knew this would never work. He was human and I was an angel. Besides... angels weren't supposed to have soulmates. I sighed, running a hand through my hair. 

The only reason he asked for me to stay was probably because he was shocked. I didn't mean anything to him. I was just someone he could lean on if he needed it. That's who I would always be and I would probably always actually let him if he truly needed to. 

All of those moments we had... it was because he was upset over Jessica. That's it. It meant so much more to me than he could ever know. I loved humans and to be a part of their world for a little while... to feel emotions the way they did... that was great. I couldn't have imagined anything better... well aside from staying with him of course, but that could never happen.

We were too different. It wouldn't have worked, besides... he was in love with Jessica. All those moments we had that I had dearly loved, but... I had to stay stoic... I had to let him go because I cared about him, more than I should. If he was happy, then I would be happy for him, no matter how upset it made me.

I stood up, cracking my back as I turned around trying to make sure no one was around. With a sad sigh, I disappeared in a flash before stumbling upon arriving. I frowned because that wasn't normal. I stumbled forward, falling to the ground, my head spinning, gasping for breath.

I fell to my knees, holding my head as it began to pound. It wasn't a sensation that I was used to and I continued gasping for breath. My vision turned white and I tried to stand up or scramble away from where I was sitting but it felt like my limbs were made of lead.

I couldn't move a muscle and it felt as if the weight of the world was on my shoulders. There was a trail of heat on my cheeks and I was shocked. I reached up to touch my cheek and found a trail of tears. Shocked was too kind a word. I have cried before but not in a long time.

And even worse, the tears kept coming. I wiped the tears away quickly as another flash of light appeared. Suddenly, Anna was standing next to me, a small smile on her face. "Hey."

"Hey." I replied.

"How are you?" she asked as she helped me up.

"Okay." I mumbled as we walked towards the shore. We both sat down and I realized where we were. My breath hitched as I stared out across the lake at the glowing flowers and the lightning bugs darting the area. Tears filled my eyes again and I tried to hold them back.

Anna was talking about how much of a pain Balthazaar was being, but I couldn't help but think about the great date Sam and I had here. Why had I come here? Why did it have to be here of all places? 

I was so upset when I left, I guess I just went to the first place that I could think of, but why did I have to come here now of all times when I had just lost the love of my life.... my soulmate... to another person who was previously dead. My body wracked with sobs as I thought about how much happier he was with Jessica.

Anna must have noticed because she wrapped me in a tight hug and whispered about how he was blind if he was happier with Jessica.

"I'm so sorry." I apologized.

"For what? You have nothing to be sorry for."

"I'm sorry that I can't listen to you about your life because I'm so wrapped up in my own."

"Hey... it's okay. I get it. You just lost someone really important to you. My life can wait."

I shook my head because I felt really bad about it. My life has come crashing down around me and I loved my friends and family for trying to make me feel better but... they don't ddeserve all the shit I'm giving them all over it. I didnt want that for anyone.

"No it's not okay. I will get over this. Let's go back home... there we can talk and you can tell me all about Balthazar."

"What about Sam?" She asked nervously.

"Forget him. I'm going to... at least try to. But I don't want you guys to be so focused on me. I'm not the only angel. Do let's go and forget abput everything down here." I said, reaching out to pull her up.

She nodded, a worried look on her face but she agreed to go with me anyway.

NOTE: Hey guys... I realize this is a short chapter but I needed a break from Sam's depressed state. Don't work ey things will get better at some point. Hopefully soon.