The Perfect Subject

〔DELETED PART〕Chapter 7

Before this Note fades into Oblivion, And since I cant write any chapters for TPS yet... Here's what Chapter 7 was supposed to be but it got a bit wrecked so I deleted this and started a new one, which is that Chapter 7 right now.

Dormitory - 4 pm

Yeah, it's better to skip some parts of my boring day. I mean, not really that boring because I get to experience myself become a cutthroat once again. Blood was shed a few hours ago and that made me tingly all over. It was an amazing feeling...

But now that I got over it, I'm here being busy thinking about how to sneak in Murasaki's house and kill Hoji Konda. Or maybe i'll kill him later when I saw him with Wakiya... But Wakiya would think it odd to have him gone... Yeah, probably midnight.

I can use my gadgets as a diversion or something that can help me get pass through Wakiya's security.

Oh and I got my allowance, it was like swimming in a tub of money again. Or probably just a cup...

Anyway, if you're gonna ask me about Jin.. Jin's not around... I guess he left even before I arrived home. I wonder why.

I continued to jot down notes about Hoji while typing at my keyboard at the same time. Hoji Konda... Son of The employee in the Murasaki Company. Treats Wakiya as a Young Master..

I pout and tapped the tables with my finger slowly. I was a bit stressed and tensed at the same time. I don't know.

"Naoki... Why are you palpitating?"I know that the reason wasn't Hoji, Shu nor Wakiya... It was Jin.

I was worried because I know that Jin always visit me every time. But now it's odd he's not around and he didn't even say goodbye when he left. I was also thinking to go and knock by his room but it felt weird even if i'm not yet knocking. I wonder what's keeping me from doing so...

It made me feel... Sad.. Defeated perhaps. I feel like Jin started to change quick after he told me that he's sorry for being naive.

I stood up, feeling a bit tired after staring at this screen for like 2 hours straight already. My back feels worn out. God.

I take my glasses off and rubbed my eyes, everything was blurred without my glasses. I was nearsighted actually. Oh we—

—"What's this?"I put my glasses back on and pulled this scrap of paper that was tucked in the side of my chair.

It reads,"Naoki, thank you. - Jin"

My heart started to ache. It felt like the world had fell on my back. I know i'm not sure. But these three words written on this paper felt like it meant everything. I started to come up with different conclusions.

Jin... Don't you wanna see me again?

I gritted my teeth. I didn't realized I was crying. I look stupid and pathetic. Crying over such little things... Though he meant the world for me.

I slid my tablet in my lab coat(I have lots of lab coats), cleared my mind and let my tears stream down my cheeks. I know i've formulated a plan already... I don't wanna worry about that anymore...

I just wanna worry about my friendship with Jin... I wouldn't take it if he left me sad and alone...

I clutched the paper in my fist, crumpling it until it was barely readable. My chest feel tight, it was hard to breathe. My eyes were bloodshot, and my hands were cold.

I'm having a mental breakdown worst than Wakiya's and Valt's. I'm becoming a bipolar maniac. I really am a mad scientist... Hehe.

I grinned, wiping my tears as I started to laugh manically. I tried to regain myself by laughing again and again, letting out all of the pain and stressed i'm feeling.

I clenched my fist and walked towards my closet full of chopped body parts. It was my haven. My closet was pretty big and cold, and it smells pretty weird because of these stuffs inside.

I kicked these arms that are blocking my path. There was actually another secret room inside my closet I built using wood and wood glue. Jin doesn't know because he doesn't wanna step inside the closet.

I groaned, scratching my head as I pulled out the key to this secret room. That room was actually meant for something... I just wanna check how it was...

"Hmm..."I choked, placing my palm on this large capsule where I will put my subject after I kill him. Wakiya's hair... Those sharp blue eyes and buff figure... His height was alright... I think with him placed in here dead, I can stare at him all day long without taking my eyes off of him. He's my ticket to victory...

If you wanna ask who the last person I placed in this capsule... Err.. It was... Xander... He doesn't remember any of it now... I didn't kill him... I just paralyzed him and let him have a deep sleep inside the capsule. Then when Ukyo and Yugo started to be suspicious of his disappearance, I decided to let him go...

So maybe that's also one of the reason he acts oddly before when I visited school.

"Naoki?!"A faint voice was heard from outside. I know it was Jin. His soft and cold voice makes me tingly all over. Of course... Who wouldn't? He left without a word then came back here rushing and calling my name.

I cleared my throat, sliding my palm on this transparent capsule and running off into my room. I forgot to lock the room but who cares anyway.

Before I stepped out of the closet, I had my hands tuck inside my lab coat. My heart was beating fast and I can feel my surroundings grew hot despite the air conditioning in my room.

I heave out a sigh, stepping out of my closet and stare at Jin who was standing right in front of me.

"Hey... Jin."I muttered, looking away with my glasses reflecting the blue LED light coming from my computer.

"Naoki..."From the corner of my eye, I can see Jin stared at me with his eyes filled with tears. His sharp teeth were exposed as he gave me a grin. "Hehe..."

"W..why are you..."I look back at him, my eyes widened in surprise as he started to cry.

"Naoki!"He cried, jumping at me as he started to hug me tightly. I can't breath...

My lab coat's wet with tears. I started to feel bad even if I know I've done nothing wrong... Why?...

"Naoki i'm sorry..."Jin sobbed, hugging me tighter.

"Wh..why are you saying sorry and why are you crying..?"I hold his cheeks, wiping his tears as he stared at me with those glistening eyes. He looks so cute but he's sad...

"Because..."He shake his head, gripping my lab coat tighter. "I didn't notice..."

He do know...

"Jin I... It's fine..."I snorted, looking down at his petite figure. He was cute if you asked me.

"But Naoki..."Jin bit his lower lip,"I love you..."

... Jin... I know you'll say... Something... Else.

"But... As a friend... I can't force myself to love you because I know you'll be hurt..."Jin's voice was shaking.

Okay... Okay.

"Okay. I understand."No... I don't.

"Are you sure...? You...you're fine..?"Jin was still hugging me...

"Yes. Don't worry."I'm not fine... I'm losing it...

"Naoki..."Jin... Why?

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Dormitory - 11:46 pm

And Yes, I deleted it at that part.