Be Mine// JASON MCCANN Fanfic// Book 1//

chapter 25.

Warning: This book contains serious topics and language.  Don't feel pressured to read. 
Thank you all for everything.

Jason's pov

I keep playing the memories from tonight over and over again. This girl is literally kicking down the wall I've put up. She's bringing out so many emotions I haven't dealt with in years. I never thought I'd fall for this girl. There's just something about her that is stuck in my mind. There's something about her that's different.

It's all so confusing. I can't date her...It can't be anymore then what it is right now. I don't even know why a title needs to be involved anyway. We're just two people who found interest in one another. If we put a title to it, something will go wrong then someone will end up heartbroken. I don't wanna go through heartbreak again and I definitely don't want Nova to be heartbroken. It's not a good feeling.

The fact that Payton is even back gets under my skin. I can't even look at her without feeling complete anger. I'm so fucking stupid though. I once loved her. I fucking loved someone who couldn't even love me back. She didn't care but she made me believe she did. She's the reason I changed. Since she hurt me, I decided to hurt her back. And no, I'm not even regretful for anything I did. I know damn well she's not either. She can tell me all she wants that she's sorry and she did love me, but it's all bullshit. Her and I are toxic. We were bound to not end up together.

That's why I don't want to put a title on Nova and I. Part of me doesn't trust what's going on between us. What if she's just fooling me? She's just messing with me. Why would she do that? Maybe it's all an act to be on my good side. It's easy for people to lie and act a certain way when in reality they're someone totally different. Nova actually cares about you. I hope that's right. I hope she does actually care because I know I do. I can't control the way I feel about her. I feel the need to protect her and make sure she's safe. It's fucking crazy how someone can come into your life and change your whole view on things. How they can bring out a part of you that you've buried.

-flashback-

We left the city and now we're back at the hotel room. Nova goes over and sits down on the couch and I lock the door behind us. "You know I actually had fun tonight. It's the first time I've enjoyed something in awhile" She said.

"I'm glad" I said sitting down next to her.

"We're not crazy, are we?" She said.

"why would we be crazy?" I said.

"Jason McCann and the girl he kidnapped falling in love" She said laughing a little and I just froze completely. Did she just say what I think she said?

"falling in love?" I said looking to her and her eyes got wide.

"You know what I mean..." she said playing it off.

"yeah...Uh, who's not a little crazy though?" I said just pushing off what she just said. Maybe she didn't mean it like that. She seems to have corrected herself. I'm just over thinking.

"You're right...we're all a little insane" She said.

"tomorrow is back to all the craziness" I said.

"I almost forgot about everything that's going on" She said.

"Yeah...for a moment I did too. Things were actually normal tonight" I said.