Be Mine// JASON MCCANN Fanfic// Book 1//

chapter 13.

Warning: This book contains serious topics and language.  Don't feel pressured to read. 
Thank you all for everything.

Nova's pov

I flutter my eyes open and it's complete darkness.  I lay there for a moment then look at the clock on the table next to the bed and see it's 2 in the morning.  I sigh and go to turn to my other side when I realize I can't.  I look down and see an arm wrapped around my waist and my eyes widen. Please tell me this isn't happening.  I start mentally cursing to myself and I slowly lift his arm off me.  I sit up to move but stop when I hear him waking up. 

"you okay?" Jason said and I sat there still frozen.  I turn to look at him and see he's laying there facing me still half asleep.

"i'm fine.  Just going to the bathroom" I said.

I get up and walk to the bathroom closing the door behind me.  I go over to the sink and lean against it still kind of freaking out about Jason.  I lift my head up and look in the mirror at myself.  I still can't even recognize myself.  I'm not the same person I used to be.  I'm someone I don't want to be.  I shake my thoughts away and turn on the sink.  I start rinsing my face and then dry it off.  I pull my hair up and then I start thinking of last night.  I see the bandaid on my forehead and it brings up memories from last night.  Jason was being so gentle and kind. He was like a totally different person. He seemed to actually care about me. No, Nova...He doesn't care. He doesn't care about me. He kidnapped me. He hurt me. I'm nothing to him.
I'm nothing at all.

I can't stay here.  I have to get out of here.  What if Jason just uses me.  Last night i've never seen him so close...so caring.  What if he's just acting soft so I trust him and let my guard down.  Then he'll take advantage of me.  Maybe his goal is to kill me.  Don't think that, Nova.  Why shouldn't I think that though? He's a criminal.  He doesn't have good intentions...he never will.  He told you he'd never hurt you again.  Yeah, well, Carter said the same words and look what happened. 
He continued to hurt me.

I take a deep breath and then look at myself one more time in the mirror.  I know what I have to do to get out of here.  It's gonna be a huge risk, but I can't stay here.  I can't do this anymore.  I'm going insane.  Anything is better than being here.  Anything. 
I need to forget what Grayson said. 
Things can be normal again.

I open the bathroom door and leave it open  going back into the room.  I quietly walk over to the bed and start looking around the room.  I need to find a phone.  When I finally spot one I walk over to it and grab it.  I start walking back to the bathroom but stop when I hear Jason moving. My heart beat immediately starts picking up and I make sure not to move a muscle.  I look over and see him turn to his side and I stand there for a couple more minutes to make sure he's definitely asleep.  When he doesn't move again I continue back into the bathroom and close the door behind me.  I put the phone onto the sink and I start breathing correctly now.  I pick up the phone and I dial the number of a person who I know is the only one who can help me. 
Hannah.

I put the phone to my ear and I pray that she'll answer.  I just need her to answer.  Despite me being mad at her and upset, I need her right now.  She'll know how to help me.  She's a McCann.  The other line picks up and relief fills my body.  Before she can even say hello, I'm frantically talking.

"Hannah? Hannah, it's me.  It's me, Nova!" I said quietly making sure I don't wake up Jason.

"Nova? What the hell! Are you okay? What is Jason doing to you?" Hannah said and I couldn't help but smile and cry hearing her voice.