A Monstrosity (Kaisoo)(Mpreg)

| Chapter 8 : Strange Eyes |

,, Bla bla " = flahsback/dream

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I woke up to feel increadibly nervous as if something was watching me orntelling me I should be careful.

Something just wasnt right .
i felt sweat tickling down my forehead and slowly got up at that removing the big blanket around me, there was an arm over me and i knew it was jongin so i gently removed it too before swinging my feet over the edge of the bed and getting to my feet.

I almost collased wanting to lay back down because my knees felt weak .but i needed fresh air. It was like I couldn't breath as if the sun itself has enterd our room to suffocate me .

So stumbling over to the other end of the room, I fiddled with the handle of the window turning it with a lot of a effort since those werwolf idiots always close it so tight without noticing .

I sucked in a breath letting the moonlight fall over me and the fresh breeze of the wind cool me down.

I couldnt help but relax leaning over the edes of the window to rest on both my arms as i watched the moon while calming down .

I always loved the moon .the sun aswell but there was something special about the moon and the way it stood out in the dark .on some nights seeming to be brighter while on others it was bearly there. But it didn't matter it was always beautiful anyway . Like a leader to all the stars.
It's nice to think of it I know it sounds stupid but I'd like to imagen that all the stars were protected by the moon.
When people left and became a light on the sky the moon would still watch over them like it did on earth ...

Jongin and the others believed in a moongodess and since everyone has a mate in their life it was their proof that she existed .

Not sure what i think of that tho i mean it sounds crazy but then again, everything is always crazy now, my life is crazy, after all i've did and still got to have jongin as a second chance to start over.

To be honest i sometimes didnt believe I deserved him after I did so many horrible things.
But he didnt care, he loves me .

I glanced back with a slight smile as i looked onto jongin sleeping deeply on the bed.

But what about his mate ?
My eyes landed back on the moon as if asking the godess herself .
What about the pack ?

They will never accept me .i'm always getting between them. Its annoying .
I wish i could somehow change things . be a werwolf myself or not always be so weak ...

Weakness , thats my problem ..

my eyes glanced over into the far seeing some trees further away in the dark .

If i go now .. Maby i will be there in the morning ..

Its not like it would be my first time in a killer forest.. And i can handle myself. get an elf to listen to me and force it to sense out chanyeols stupid bracelett .. They can afterall connect with the whole forest ,
Maby if i would return with this bracelett then everything would change .

,, hey .. " i turned when jongins yawn apeard right before he wrapped his arms around me resting his head on my shoulder and making me smile while i continued looking at the moon, questioning him almost falling asleep on my shoulder.
,, arent i suppose to be the one being tired ?"

He rose his head still having closed eyes when he answerd sniffing the back of my neck .
,, even wolfs need their rest and i just joined you like half an houre ago " i closed my eyes as his breath ghosted over the skin of the back of my neck .
,,what are you doing up anyway ?"