Can I really even call it love
I was so young but
You blinded me
Each day I couldn't wait to see your devilish smirk
Or see you throw back your head with laughter
I ached for your attention
But I never begged for it
To worried about rejection
Or the taunting words of our classmates
As they heard my giggles as you whispered to me
Oh how you used to whisper to me
Coaxing our infectious giggles that wouldn't
stop
I loved the way you made me laugh
I loved the way you made me feel
I could ignore all the nasty comments you've made about me
Poking my biggest insecurities to make yourself laugh
Because I just wanted to be around you
I just wanted your attention
I wanted you to notice me
The shy girl who stuttered to much
But who always had a sharp comment on her tongue
I wanted you to know me
That's why I endured every hurtful word
You could never understand how fast my heart thrummed when you sat next to me
Or when you placed your hand on my thigh
The heat from your hand almost burning me
I begged myself not to saying anything stupid
Oh how you made me feel
How you make me still feel
At times I didn't care that you only wanted to sit next to me so you could write down my answers
It's pathetic but this was the only way you would talk to me
I needed you
But I could never admit those words out loud
I was so young but I knew I loved you
I loved you so much that when you turned to her I couldn't help but feel broken
I had to step away because of her
But she was my best friend
What was I supposed to do
I couldn't even get you to notice me for weeks but yet
You noticed her everyday
My love for you never died
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My darkness
PoesíaThis is poems about what's going on with me and what might other people are feeling as well
