Babybreaths

Part 4

After coming inside I was welcomed with a hug. I sighed and hugged him back. "I love you..." He reminded me. I smiled a little. "I love you too... i'm sorry I've been ignoring you. I'm just- so depressed" I sniffed a little. "It's alright, I understand.. just... take your medicine and we can go talk to a therapist together. It'll get better... in time". I silently nodded. "Alright...I'm tired..." I yawned. He looked at me "I've bought you a few things when you were away, wanna see?~". I raised an eyebrow "oh?.. Tch~ You shouldn't have" I giggled a little and smiled tiredly. He had me sit down by the table for some tea before he showed me the bags. He pulled out a short and thin silicon dress. I dropped my jaw as I looked at it. I had been looking at it for so long but it was very expensive and I would never dare buy one in my own size, I had always been scared what the cashier would think. " How'd you afford that!?" I asked amazed and surprised. He just smiled " I've been working a little extra..". "It's so... pretty.. ". "It'll be even prettier with you in it, go on... try it." I undressed and put it on. It was so weird, but it felt so soft against my skin... I smiled and hugged him. "thank you.." He smiled back at me and kissed me. It's been so long since we did that, kissed on the lips.

That night we cuddled up to a move with some snacks. I was still so sad but... i felt happy in the moment.

I was so happy that he was happy. I've been feeling so guilty but now when he talked to me again, I've started to feel much better. But I still felt like I should've done more. I started working more, asking his parents to come over to give him some company the days I was gone. I worked a lot, getting more and more stressed about it. I felt like I wasn't getting enough payed from what I did. Me and Aki also started going to some therapy once a week, it only lasted for about a month though... I guess... that wasn't what he thought he needed. I slept with him everynight and made sure to leave notes for him to read when he woke up without me. It was hard. Wanting to get him so much and to pay for the both of us now when he wasn't working. His parents have been helping out a lot with that too though. They've started to come over with bags of food and the home suplies we needed and usually bought something extra for me and Aki, just to bring up the mood. I was really thankfull for their help... but I was still struggeling.

I came home a bit late today. I was exhausted and frustrated. The guy who pays me makes me risk too much for too little. I was almost burnt out. I kissed Aki goodnight as soon as I came home and told him I was coming soon, I was just gonna fix myself up first. I had showered and taken myself something to eat. But also... something to drink. I used to be an alcoholic once in my life, but I came over it.... now here I was, sipping on my last vodka flask that I've been saving so long. I felt like I needed it. Everything was so hard, my dick too... and Aki have always been too sad to have any sexuall thoughts at all. He was even starting to freeze me out at first, but that was months ago, but he did it. Didn't he like me enough? I've given him so much and bettered myself just for his sake, and this is what I get for everything i've done. I growled a bit as I drank some more. Half the bottle was up now. He's such a bitch- That- fucking- little whore. Poor baby- huh?! I stood up, taking a big chug before slamming the bottle into the table. I've gotten nothing back from him. If he keeps being like this... this- selfish, I must give myself the reward I deserve from him. I stumbled angrily into our bedroom. Oh man I was angry.