Survivors-A Tobuscus Fanfic

Willingly Falling

Ella's POV

"Toby- I'm sorry. I just-" I tried to apologize.

"No don't. It's my fault. If you don't feel that way, I shouldn't have forced it." He said, walking out the front door.

I followed him.

The clouds had taken over the sky, a rare occurrence in LA. It had even began to sprinkle a bit.

He was sitting on the curb, his head in his hands. I walked over and took a seat beside him.

"I don't mean to hurt you," I said, "Its just that.. well.."

"You don't like me?" Toby suggested without looking up.

"No. I like you. I just.." It was difficult to tell him what happened. I nervously spun the ring still on my finger. "His name was Jonathan."

"Who's name?" he asked. His head was still down but he looked at me out of the corner of his eyes.

"My fiancé." my eyes began to fill with tears. "Former fiancé. He- he didn't- He didn't make it."

The rain had picked up now, blending with the tears that were silently streaming down my cheeks.

"Ever since it happened it was my goal to just forget about it. But I couldn't. I miss him so much. I like you, Toby, I really do. I just feel as though I am betraying Jonathan by being with you." I said, everything was just coming out. I said exactly how I felt.

Toby was silent for a while, then he placed an arm around me, whispering words of apology.

"Ella, I'm so sorry. Gosh I'm stupid. I'm sorry. It's okay. I know. I'm so sorry."

I hated being like this. I felt fragile and vulnerable. My true self. I had tried to act tough and stronger than I was. I tried to trick myself into thinking I could make it alone, even though I obviously couldn't. I was sitting here in the middle of a zombie apocalypse, crying about boys.

I hated even more that Toby was here. No, I didn't hate Toby. I just wish he didn't make it into my crap life. I wish his laugh wasn't adorable and his smile wasn't so beautiful and I wish everything about him wasn't so darn perfect. I wish I didn't fall for him. I didn't like looking so sad and pitiful in front of him, when he probably believed me to be so strong. Yet here he was, being strong for me and holding me until I finally stopped shaking with sobs.

"Ella I am such an idiot. I didn't know. I shouldn't have- I am just so sorry." Toby said.

I didn't have a response so we both stayed silent.

We sat there for a while, the rain pouring down onto us but it didn't matter. Toby stayed with his arm wrapped around me the whole time. At that point, I knew that I would not be able to stop myself from falling in love with Toby Turner. I had loved Jonathan with all my heart and I can honestly say that he wouldn't want me to live the rest if my life alone.

'Get out there, and live, Ella! Don't worry about me.' That's what he'd say.

I was going to fall for Toby and that was the moment I decided not to try to stop myself.

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Authors Note:

Alright so there are maybe two people reading this fic XD . I'd really like to get a lot of reads so if those actually reading this story could maybe tell others to read that'd be great! Just a request though:)

I'm going to, of course, still post new chapters despite the lack of attention this story is getting because I'm just having fun writing it. So thanks for reading!

PEACE OFF BOOP.