happy birthday.
I got you a hoodie and a comic book.
I'm sorry.
sorry that I cant make a better hoodie.
sorry that if it's too big for you.
I asked her about size and she said that it'd be better if it's oversized rather than being too small.
I kinda thought about that one time where you got sick because of the cold and planned to make two for you and your girlfriend, but I was low on money, sorry for that too.
the design I went for wasn't the best one, the original was way better but I can't find anyone who wants to make it because of it's complicated design, sorry.
I planned it months ago but something happened and suddenly I have a budget, sorry, I should've planned earlier.
sorry if you preferred the anime better than the manga.
they say sometimes there are things and details they fail to fit in the anime adaptation, so I thought I'd buy you one.
although I'm unable to buy the whole series, I only bought the 11th chapter because it just fits your name, sorry, I should've been more thoughtful.
I plan to ship all these things, but then my aunt asks me if I wanted to join her on a trip to bandung for two days, so now I'm thinking of maybe giving it to you in person then. but I don't know yet, everything about the trip isn't set yet and I haven't asked you if you are available then, sorry that I'm not consistent.
sorry that I couldn't give you much.
the things you've given me before, physically and mentally, both seemed like I can never repay it.
so I'll try, from now and until I die, to do anything I can.
even though maybe I shouldn't.
maybe, I should just stop trying to find reasons to reach out to you.
but I wouldn't stop and I know it.
so, I'm sorry that the things I'm able to do now isn't much.
I'm nothing but a good for nothing kid now, but I've had some progress here and there.
I promise you, that trip to japan is going to happen.
and when it comes, I'll let you know.
you made me feel emotions, things that assure me that I am indeed alive as a human being.
I wasted it, and I'm sorry.
sorry for saying sorry so much.
I hope you lead a good life, I hope you find happiness and what you want to do with your life.
I love you, I'll always do.
