its been a week since the accident with my mom. She wasn't pissed that they were over just that I didn't tell her. Well I'm grounder for yet another 1 month. Everything has indeed changed. For starter's Ashton knows about my feeling. I've heared rumors about his and to be honest I'm lost in my own world. So many things has happened that I don't even know how to start so I will just summarize it.
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Everyone knew it. I had no reason to hide it anymore. I was probably dumb to addmit it but a part of me was actually happy. I didn't have to carry the wight of the secret anymore. Although its a little awkward between us now I'm glad he knows. How he wants to take it is his choice but I did my part by telling him. Which I didn't really have a say in but it happened, and I'm over it and I'm just trying to see where Ashton and I stand becouse right now it seems like were floating in outer space. I don't know what to do about it either. All I'm doing know is going with the wind and see were it takes me although there is one distention I prefure.
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I been thinking about the dream I had the day after my fail to hide Eleanor and the rest. I've replayed it in my mind but it rings no bells. Theres no meaning behind it. If there is,it's hidden pretty good. The one dream that attracts me the most is the second one. In that dream I felt week. like if I had no control over the dream. I was powerless all I did was watch what happened throw a pair of eyes. It seemed real but fake at the same time. Fake as in the way I was observing what the woman in my dream did like if I were watching a movie and not even able to move a muscle.
Well that is the summary of my days so far. I try not to over think the Ashton thing but I can't help it. It kills me that he has this small power over me that I can't rid of! No matter what I do it always comes back and i have just stop fighting it. My parents would probably get over what happened on that Saturday and its gonna be OK. The dreams will obviously will go on and never stop. I am Still trying to figure out the meaning behind the second dream and I won't stop till I do.
AN
sorry for making this chapter so short but I kinda have things going on so I might not update as much as I use to
thx☺
-12S
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the journal of life
Teen FictionIt all started with a dream journal Which later with out knowing became her life journal. Alex is like any other teenager....full of drama but what if all the dram is just to much for her to handle.
