Days go by and my madness grows. I basically forgot the world around me. I spend most of my days in my room or at my cousins house. My cousin and my aunt beg for me to eat, but im just not hungry.
" Your not gonna move from the table till that plate is clean." my aunt pointed at the plate.
" well then I guess Im sleeping here!!" I place my head on the table. I hear her grunt from frustration.
" See this is what gets you in trouble!! Do you want to get sick!! because thats just going to make things worse.!!!" she paused.
"........3 days alex 3! you haven't ate!" I lift my head to see her with her hand on her hip leaning against a chair.
" I did eat..at school!" I was telling the truth I ate fruits and yogert that had to count.
" yea.....6 hours ago! I place my head back on the table. I hear her walk away as my cousin approaches. With my elbow I push away the mack and cheese.
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" your still hooked up on that ash guy!!" My friend Hannah shouts in my hear.
" yes and its Ashton..." I study my math work sheet. the number just dont seem right. Ughhhh I hate math.
" I dont know about you but you need a rebound." I give her a dirty look and them turn back to my paper.
" What!! you have jack wrapped around your finger and you have that Alejandro guy! sorry for being the only one giving you awake up call!!" She screeched. I had to take real big breaths to keep my self from exploding, she continued.
" OH MY FUCKING GOD SHUT UP!! I dont want a rebound I want him,and if you have a problem then thats your shit not mine!!" I could feel hot blood rush to my face. Everyone stares at me. Gladly the bell rings. Im the first one out. I held back tears as I walked into my 7th period.
I sit with zuri. I turn into happy mode like if nothing had happen. I look at the White board that played the world cup. I never liked soccer but I watched anyway. From my left side I feel a metallic thing touch my skin. I look down and see zuris phone lighting up a note.
zuri: imma move because of you.
me: im moving wtf!! I know cuz I cought them looking for houses
Zuri: same my mom said shes tired of this place and the ppl in it
me: oh omg I think Ashton is mad at me.
zuri: why
me: idk.. I just don't know if he wants to continue.
zuri: you guys are still together ... just quite doubting everything
me: i cant there is to many things that could happen and I dont want to drag him down.
zuri: ughhhh you won't he loves you.....I think.
me: exactly think....
zuri: haha im kidding he loves you. he said he miss u like crazy.
me: no he didn't
zuri: yes he did you were there
me: I was..?
zuri: no you weren't, you were upstairs crying your eyes out.
me: awhhh I love him dude and I dont know how to stop it!!
zuri:well Idk what to do, I usually do, sorry
me: im sorry for getting u in trouble
zuri: haha its ok
me: I really am sorry
I put the phone down and later I hear her voice
"Its ok."
I drift in to thought as we stop talking. I think about Ashton like usual. I miss him more then iv ever missed anyone. A day cant go by that I dont think of him even when im not listening to our song , it replays in my head and I even find my self crying to it sometimes.
let go of him
That same voice gives me the same advice over and over again, but I never give in to it. I just can't let go of him. ..trust me iv tryed and it didn't work.Just the thought of him messes me up. How can i forget someone who turned my life upside down!! Someone who I would give anything to see once more.
HOW CAN I FORGET SOMEONE THAT DOSENT WANT TO BE
FORGOTTEN.
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the journal of life
Teen FictionIt all started with a dream journal Which later with out knowing became her life journal. Alex is like any other teenager....full of drama but what if all the dram is just to much for her to handle.
