the journal of life

chapter 21

everyone around us danced. I got my money for agreeing to fake being Wes girlfriend but still don't know why.

" your so quite." Wes put his arm around me. I shurug it off. he glances at me and puts it up again.

" were a couple. act like it" he grunted, looking straight a head.

" ha no were not. I'm your mistress." I laughed. I was hoping he would know the meaning to the word so I wouldn't have to explain it to him sadly he didn't.

" mistress?"

" yes.. you know when you cheat on your girlfriend or wife with another." I said.

" I don't have one.... a girl friend that is." he frowned.

" pepper and you..?" I questioned.

" oh no......god no!" I laughed at his reaction. the truth was I actually though they dated. I saw how much care there was between them the last 3 days.

" why" I say between my laughter as I pull on a yellow hoodie I had brought with me.

" shes self centered, complains about things that don't really matter and well we fosters can't date each other." I was speechless. foster... he and pepper are foster children. it took a couple minutes to take that all in. by the time I had gathered up the guts to respond back it was to late. Wes had already began.

" OK so we meet 1 year ago and your 17" he mumbled in my ear,

" wow OK I'm pretty sure I'm not tall enough to be 17." I look up at him. my god he was tall. I only had a few friend that were taller them me 4 which were Jose,Jamison , Alejandro and Elliot. Wes was a whole head taller then me which was kinda attractive might I say.

" no your not I'm 16 and people say I look 18." he lowered his hand to my waist pulling me to him as the brunette from minutes ago headed thoughts us.

" aw you two are so adorbs!! west ."

" Wes" Wes corrected him as he took a sip of his drink. which I'm pretty sure was wine because of the smell that radiated off of him.

" Wes.. do you mind if I borrow her" she pointed at me. Wes shoke his head. the girl tooked our elbows together and pulled me a small spot on the dance floor.

" I'm sky" she yelled as she dance. her heels clicked on the wood floor. sky was about the same night as me a little bit bigger.

" your boy friends is hot," she commented.

" yea I guess."

" yea..... come on dance." my cheeks flowed with blood. I couldn't dance. my friend mike tryed to teach me and it ended in a very awkward way. I shake my head at sky.

" no!! why"

" I can't dance actually" she gasped and pulled on my arm.

" here I'll teach you" she pulled me close and turned backwards. sky then skimmed down my body. I watch as Wes smiles at me.

no I thought this was ridiculous and uncomfortable. when sky is at my hight I whisper in her ear.

" sky stop this is so weird,"

" aw your no fun" she pouted

" come" she pulled me to the hall way and on the way she grabbed her pures sky then reached for something in her perse. from it she retrieved a small case with small round white pills. snapping the tap open she handed me one.

" umm Am I soppost to take this,?" I hold the pill with my thum and index finger.

" yup it will get you hipped and then you will be fun" she handed me coke or wine I wasn't sure sure. I hesitated. should I or not. I was about to give it back when a flash back of the past came to me. with the whole shit with Ashton which turned out to be worthless in the end, and the moveing process I would have to go through when I get home. I dicide I need a time to have fun. I pop the pill into my mouth and swallow it down with the help of the substance (coke) sky gave me.

" what was that!" I asked

"molly" I nodded I had heard of molly before but never really tryed it. I guess there is always a first for everything.

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it didn't take long for the molly to take place. by the time we got back to our dance spot I was having the best time of my life. I do has sky instructs me to do.

" lower your self down slowly!!" she yealled in my ear. I try to rethink about the choices I'm making and tell my self it's wrong but I do them anyways.

" good! Your a natural" sky clapped her hand together.

" sure lets go with that" I laughed.

" Wes is like totally eating you with his eyes right now." She leaned close to my ear. I turn to look at him and fined my self smiling.

" ok hon it's time for step two." Sky said from behind me. I turn to her.

" step two...."

" yea just go with it" she turned me back to my starting position and pulled me close. She swayed my hips to the side matching the rhythm of the song . Slowly she went down to the hem of my hoodie. Soon I realized what she was gonna do. I grab hold of her hands.

" go with it" sky said. I let go of her hands. She lifted the hoodie of slowly which felt really uncomfortable but for some reason I did not care at all. Once it was clean off all I had on was the crop top Wes had gave me and Jean shorts. Sky then pulled me to Wes.

" so you having fun cuz Alex and I are" she giggled.

" I am very much actually." He pulled me close to him. I could smell the liqueur in his breath. The faint smell was horrifying. His greenish eyes were dark. They had no shine to them like they usually did. He was drunk.

" ok I'll be right back .. I need to get something." Sky giggled as she ran of out of the narrow hall way. Leavening Wes and I alone. With his arms still wrapped around me he spoke.

" I thought you couldn't dance?" He smirked.

" I can't alone I mean... Sky helped me." I whispered. It was true I couldn't dance that was one of my weaknesses. I feel his hand on my lower back. I felt so small as he held me. Like if I were a little hamster and he held me in his hands. Weird......

Everything was fine. I was Enjoying my self. Wes and I were getting along. Maybe cuz he was drunk and his stupid since of humor is gone. Then when everything was fine. The stupid song had to come on.. God ughhhhh!!! It's like I leave a place only to be followed by memory's. Soon I became uncomfortable I pull away from Wes as

Habits by trove lo played. That song always gets me in a bad mood. I mean I love that song it gets me thinking and all but with it comes the flash of the past. The flash of Ashton. It's not that I still have feelings for him cuz honestly I got over him pretty fast. It's just the thought annoys the fuck out of me. Of all the crap I did for a guy. That because of that I won't see Jose and Julia my bestests friends in the whole world.

" what's wrong?" Wes lead forward.

" the song ...just memory's... Bad ones."

" what happen?" He leaned against the wall next to me.

" non of your problem . I just have bad memory's when I hear this song." I bang my head against the wall.

" what if..." Wes stopped. I wait for him to continue but he dose not. I would had asked him to continue but I got lazy.

" what if... I can change that" he turned to me.

" ha sure how is that my friend" I clap my hands. He twists to face me and puts his hand on both sides of me. His greenish eyes sparkled.

" like this."