My Killjoy Story

Chapter 50; The End

Hey there.... So.....

It's the year 2018 and here I am. I'm an adult now and yet I think about this story and this website and the amazing friends that I made through it all constantly. I rarely talk to any of them now, but I want them to know that I love them so so much and I am so proud of them all for where we have all gone and how we are all adults now <3 I still so look forward to meeting up one day, I hope <3

I am currently really struggling with my depression again, and I wish that I and others took it more seriously when I was young so that I wouldn't have to be dealing with it so bad now. I'm in University now and everything has finally gotten into place and the road is set for my future. But, here I am, still not satisfied and still not happy.

This story for me has always symbolised my horrible mental state at the time, and when I Was going through it I thought that it all started because of these horrible boys in my life that used and hurt me to get to my best friends but in reality... I was a teenager that really needed help. I was not in a good place and I constantly wanted to hurt myself and it was because of how my friends treated me. I was bullied, I was pushed aside and I was becoming myself, which is the hardest thing anyone can go through sometimes.

So, I am finally going to be able to scratch this off of my bucket list. Finishing My Killjoy Story.... For so many years I knew how I was going to end this story but I think that I know now how its supposed to end, the right way for it to close.

Thanks so much if you are still here and reading and waiting, After 20.3k views/reads on this I am so inspired and humbled. I'm sorry if my writing isn't as good as it once was and I'm sorry that I have forgotten half of the kids names, but I just feel like it needs to be finished after so long...

For the last time, signing off,

Hollyiero xo

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-Holly's P.O.V-

I am now 74 years old... Frank and the guys are 75.

The last few decades have zoomed by.. We are all constantly on alert of anything happening to our big family that is still growing with Mikey & Wren's and Ray & Kat's children have kids of their own and Michael finding someone. Gerard and Dani never had kids, its always just been them. Some of us have drifted but the 5 of us have always remained; Frank, Gerard, Ray, Mikey and I. We all come together for special holidays, but sometimes its just us 5 and I have always liked it that way.

The last time I died, my parents told me that I would know what to do when we were old and grey...

-Flashback-

"Are you two ready to go back?" Holly's Mother asked, "But we'll never see you again?" Holly said sadly looking at the ground, her father tilted her chin up and kissed her forehead, "When you are old and grey, you will know what to do," he winked, Holly took my hand and his hand and I took her hand and her mothers hand so that we were in a small circle. "I love you mum, I love you dad.." Holly said quietly as a tear ran down her cheek, and I squeezed her hand reassuringly, "Frank, look after her," Her father said to me firmly, "I will sir," I smiled, We all looked at eachother and nodded.

-Flashback Over-

The last few days have felt weird, we have gone about our same routines, but things have just felt off around the whole of Killjoy HQ.