It's sad. Losing someone you love. You wish you had treated them better. Even though you did there's still a part of you where you wish you could have done more. You just wish you would have hugged them or said goodbye at least once more. But you didn't so now your left with a empty hole in your heart and body. You feel incomplete. I don't know what to do. She was my safe place. I felt so comfortable with her it was inevitable. I realized something though I'm not scared anymore of dying. I thought I was but now all I see is happiness. Knowing when I do die I'll see her. You deserved the world. This is to you Sophie.