Hi lovely flowers so turns out I'm not okay see I guess I was truly happy for a while but now I'm so fucking done. People I've known as my "friends" are faker than my smiles. They talk behind my back. My dad doesn't care about me anymore and doesn't even respond to my calls. My sister doesn't like me and I'm gonna fucking break down. Im gonna see how these pills I take on New Year's feel. Maybe I'll take more anyway all they do is make me feel numb. Hopefully I get help because I haven't been this bad since my last meltdown.