At bottom and aloft

Chapter Fourteen

Dear diary,
A lot has changed in past week. I told Olivia and Aaron about my condition. They told me they'll be there for me. I was so glad to have my friends standing by me. Anyway, Olivia's plan to write down the Bucket list was accepted by Becca's goverment, eventually. Well Olivia apologized and then I told her about my talk with Aaron and well, she insisted on it. So here we are. In my room. Creating Bucket list. Or more likely...The List Of Things I have to Experience Before I Die. But...Olivia likes to call it Bucket list instead. I wonder why. I told her to not write there all of those weird things. And she told me this: "That's what's Bucket list for, you have to enjoy your life for a maximum." So I agreed. Not with everything of course. She kept everything that was wrote in there as a secret. She told me she'll be my 'guidebook' that means she'll always pick one thing and we'll do it together. Or just me.

,,Can't you just tell me what's in there? What if I'm gonna be somewhere without you and there would be opportunity to do something from The List?"
,,Oh God. You screw up everything."
,,It's my Bucket list after all."
,,Fine." She read everything to me. I was just sitting there with an open mouth. I was in shock. Yeah I helped with something but the rest Olivia wrote. She had a huge imagination. Among other things, Aaron knows about The Bucket list too and that's not everything. Oh no way. He said-and now listen-that he wants to be part of the mission 'Becca's first times'. Another shock for this week. Olivia wasn't on my side. No way. She told him that's excellent idea. Perfect. And guess what happened then...Well they started planning camping under the stars. Yes, Olivia went crazy. She clearly thinks that my parents will let me. Yeah, she absolutely does.
,,And we'll invite Matt and Crystal and Neila and Cany, everyone!"
,,Couldn't it be some kind of private party?"
,,You have to spend your time with your closest."
,,Well I don't think that...."
,,Stop thinking! Holidays are starting in two weeks. You have to tell everybody the truth."
,,I won't be able to do it."
,,If you won't, I'll tell them for you. We'll have unforgettable six months together."
,,Yeah, we will."

    Next day we sat at cafeteria for lunch break. We, I mean me, Olivia. Aaron, Matt, Crystal, Cany and Neila. Usually it was just me, Olivia, Aaron and Matt. Olivia told CCN-short cut for Crystal, Cany and Neila- about my condition. They haven't said anything but they were really, really kind. Olivia just planned our little trip and she looked so happy about it. Me personally, I have the feeling that she just tries to distract herself. She have to be sad about that whole 'Becca's dying thing'. Maybe she should have distraction, like REAL distraction. Me and Matt were so close and now, we barely talk to each other. He doesn't spend too much time with us anymore. He's always somewhere. I hope we'll start talking again. And Aaron. I don't know if he's my friend or not. It is kind of, intimate between us? I don't know how to call it. It's like we understood each other. Like understanding bond. Bond that I never felt before. And I'll never will again.

    School days passed like a water. Seconds changed into minutes. Minutes into hours. Hours into days. And days into weeks. And suddenly there was last day of school. We got our testimonials and said goodbye to our friends. To most of them.
,,I can't believe that we've survived another year. It's like survive a tsunami."
,,Well, let's hope that we'll survive another." I laughed but then I realized. Not all of us.
,,Hey, It's summer break. We have to enjoy it. We will. So bring up your smile Caidwell. We've got a lot of work to do." Yeah, we've really got. I felt hands on my eyes.
,,Guess who?"
,,I guess Matt."
,,Wrong guess."
,,But I'm there too." I recognize Matt's voice
,,I don't know any other boys. Not the sexy ones."
,,I'm glad to hear that you think I'm sexy Becca." Matt laughed and then I saw a light again.
,,Funny."
,,Did I hit the right string? Did I hurt your ego? I'm so sorry."
,,You'll regret this. You cookie."
,,Cookie?" I didn't get a chance to move and he grabbed me and folded me over his shoulders. I felt blood swilling down to my head.
,,You're as crunchy as cookie."
,,What? I'm not! Let me go!"
,,Nope."
,,Let me go Aaron Waters!"
,,Becca Caidwell. I won't let you go."
,,My head is pounding!" And then he put me on the ground. I lost balance so Aaron kept holding me. He smiled. Olivia was laughing so hard that she was laying on the pavement. She couldn't catch a breath.
,,Very funny."
,,Yeah, it really is." She continued laughing. I turned around and walked home. Aaron caught me and walked right next to me. Olivia was behind us along with Matt.
,,Olivia convinced your parents so you could stay at her house this weekend. It was hard but she's very convincing."
,,Yeah I noticed."
,,I'll come to visit." Perfect.
,,Fine."
,,Be a little happier!"
,,Yay!" I felt not fake joy but I couldn't give him that joy.
,,Perfect." He started running.
,,What are you doing?"
,,Catch me if you can." So I started catching him. Well, I tried.
,,Come on! I can't anymore!" I barely catch a breath. Aaron ran up to me.
,,Are you okay?"
,,Yeah, I just need to catch a breath."
,,I think it was enough physical activity for one day." He took me to his armful and carried me at home.
,,I can walk."
,,Save your strength."
,,You don't have to carry me."
,,I want to."
,,Argh." I groaned.
,,I'll treat you like a princess." Oh. My. Goodness.

    When we got into Olivia's house, Aaron put me on the sofa in living room. Olivia with Matt came about ten minutes later.
,,What do we have first in our Bucket list?"
,,Our?" I asked.
,,What's yours is ours." Replied Aaron and winked.
,,Movie marathon night. Stay up all night. Try to cook."
,,Seriously? Try? I can cook!"
,,Let's be honest, Becca. Really?"
,,Oh my god..."
,,I'll go shopping. Olivia write down what we need."
,,Sure." So Olivia went to her room and Aaron sat on a couch, put my legs into his lap.
,,You shouldn't carry me whole way."
,,I was supposed to. You got tired. I carried you. It was given."
,,Don't blame me when you'll have hernia."
,,Whatever." We have listened to the silence. We looked at each other. Silence.
,,Did Matt go with Olivia?"
,,I think so."
,,Matt and Olivia in her room."
,,Silence." I laughed. Finally. But Matt? Maybe that's why he haven't talked to us that much.
A few moments later Olivia (and Matt) came back. Olivia had lipstick on her cheek. I looked at Aaron and chuckled. He looked away and chuckled.
,,What's wrong?" Asked Olivia nervously
,,Well, you have something...here." I pointed at my cheek. She laughed nervously.
,,Yey. Wonder how that happened."
,,How about?"
,,Do you have a list Aaron?"
,,Sorry, I had to let your friend enjoying my company."
,,What?"
,,Okay, come with me. No need for you to distract." They went to kitchen. Matt sat next to me.
,,So...Olivia and You?"
,,I guess." He blushed. Of course.
,,How long?"
,,Few weeks?"
,,That's why you haven't with us much anymore?"
,,We weren't certain about our feelings." I looked at him with smile at my face.
,,That means that you're now?" He smiled
,,Maybe. Is that okay with you?"
,,Are you kidding? I'm so happy for you guys. She needs someone good in her life."
,,Thank you. Can I hug you now?"
,,I don't know..."
,,Come here!" He hugged me. And I hugged him back. I knew that he and Olivia will be happy. At least for a while. I was so happy that my friends will have each other when I'm gonna be gone. It'll be easier for them. I hope. Olivia and Aaron came back from kitchen. Olivia blushed in a second her's and Matt's eyes met. Yep, definitely in love.
,,I'll be back in an hour. I have to pick up some things at home. Matt are you going with me?"
,,Sure."
,,You're gonna be there with us?"
,,Of course, princess." And then they left. Time for hearing.
,,Don't you have something to tell me?"
,,You already know. What should I tell you?"
,,I want to hear it from you!"
So she started talking. She told me how she feels about him. She was blushing all the time. They're both definitely in love. I was seriously happy for them. So so much. I want her to be happy. I want her to be happy for me either. When I can't be happy too long.