The start of something good - Bryles

12 - It's out

Myles

I actully don't really know what happend yesterday, I mean it was not just me was it? Uhr, I wish I never kissed her.
Well I'm sure it's going to be pretty wierd in school today, or mabye she's not mad anymore, I should just act normal. That's my plan.

"Hey man!" Devon exclaim, as I walk into the doorway and comes over to my locker. "Sup?!" I reply. "Not much, but do you know what's up with Briar, she's acting really wierd?" Oh no, I guess she's still mad. But I honestly don't get it, she did just as much as me. Or mabye she's just still upset about the hole Mike-thing. I know it's a bit selfish, but I hope so. "Well-" I was about to say but get cut off by Jessy, "There she comes!" She says and waves. "She has been acting so wierd all morning. We were just talking, and then when I asked her, what you two were talking about yesterday, she ran away." Jessy explain. So she's still mad at me huh?
Just as she sees me, she quickly turns around and runs away. "She did it again! What were you talking about yesterday?" Devon exclaims. "Well actully we-" I got cut up again, "Don't, say another word!" A girl shouts behind me. Briar! We all turn around to look at her. She is standing a few meters away with tears in her eyes. Oh god, what have I done. "Bri." I say walking a little closer. "Don't Bri me!" She shouts, no Briar please don't do this. I didn't thought it would be this bad, but that's the problem. I didn't think, it just kinda happend. "Briar please, you can't do this." I say walking even closer. "I can do this just as much as I want to, and you know why?!" She keeps on shouting, now with tears running down her cheeks. No Briar don't cry, I hate it when you cry. I don't answer, I just look at her. "You can't talk now? Well I guess you didn't talked much yesterday either!" I wish I could just hug her right now, and make it all go away. But I guess that wouldn't be such a good idea. "Well mabye I started it yesterday, but you started it at the park!" I say. She is quiet for a while. I bet everyone is thinking about what actully happend. "I was upset and sad Myles, what was your reason?!" I don't know, I just wanted to. "Did you just do it because you thought that it would make me shut up or what?!" I don't know what to answer. "Or do you not care about me at all?!" She shouts. How could she even think that, don't she knows how much I care about her. "For god sake, speak!" She exclaims. "Briar, if you knew how much I care about you." I say quiet, but it seemed like everyone heard, because they all start coing.
"Well, I don't know it?" What can I answer to that. "I can't tell you." I say looking at the floor. "What can you not tell me?!" This Briar, and only this. "This is the one thing I really can't tell you." I suddently shout. Oh, I wasn't meant to shout it. She looks at me with a hurt look. "What could that proberbly be? You like me or what?!" She shouts. I do Briar I do, a lot. But I can't say that. I quickly look up, and meet her eyes. "That's not what I said." Uhr, why did I say that, that was my chance. "Then what so?!" That's it, what the hell am I suppose to answer to that. Because I can't find a answer, I'm just being quiet. "Myles?" She says with a hurt voice, and walks close to me. God, I hate to be the one hurting her. I try to look away from her. Just trying to look everywhere except Briar. "Look at me!" She shouts right into my face, while she graps my shoulders. I look at her, and see tears running down her cheeks. "Can't you just tell me?" She almost wispers. No, I can't. I want to, but I just can't, and it's killing me. But she basekly still has a boyfriend. I skake my head, and get loose of her grap. "Excuse me?" I say to the ones who's blocking the door. "What's wrong with you?!" I hear her yell after me. What's wrong with me. Well I'm inlove. But hearing her say that, that really hurt me. I can feel I start to tear up. I turn around, to find her standing in the middle of the cirkle, the others made around us. She looks pissed of, but also like I just wripped her heart out. I can't handle seeing her like that. "Briar don't." Jessy says to her, trying to get her to calm down. But I swear, if she was a catoon figure, there will be steam coming out of her ears. "Don't touch me!" She exclaims, and turns around to face me again. "You have no idea what I'm going trow Myles. And all you do is, you know... I just can't do that, no matter how much I want to, believe me. But it's to much."
She says, and I can see the fear in her eyes. Why is she scared. "What do you mean?" I ask softly. "What do I mean?!" She shouts, wich makes me jump.
"Right now my dad is laying in the hospital, and I have no idea if he's going to be ok! My first so called 'boyfriend' ever is trying to hurt me, and I'm way to scared to even think of, what he will do, if I brake up with him. And last but definetly not least, YOU! How do you think it feels to go trow all of that without my best friend. And how do you think it feels when the person you trust the most kiss you, and then say that he did it because he just wanted to, huh?!" She shouts, with tears racing down her face. Wow, that was a lot to take in. 1 - She just told everyone that we kissed. 2 - I had no idea that her dad was sick. And 3 - I really wanted to help her with Mike.
As she said the last thing everyone gasp. They all know that we have been best friends in like forever, and now we kissed. Best friends are not supposed to kiss.
"And just to mension, do you know wich one hurt me the most?" She says, I guess the one with her dad, that's awfull. "The last one!" She shouts, and storm off, leaving me standing in the door with everyones eyes on me.
They are all quiet, propebly taking in the information just like me.
How could I hurt her so much. I was about to run after her, I need to tell her how I feel about her, but I get cut off by a voice that scares the life out of me, "You fucking kissed my girlfriend!" It's Mike, and he's storming up to me. What do I do now, I don't wanna get beaten to death. "I can explain!" I say, but how could I explain. "Yeah! I would like to hear that?!" He shouts. Oh boy, I'm doomed.
"I don't know what to say." I say helpless. And actully I feel helpless, how can I have done so much to my best friend without even knowing it. Or I guess the two first things wasn't really my fault. "Well you don't have to!" He says and punches me in the face. Ouch that really hurt, but still no way near how Briar's words hurt me. "Hey back off!" I hear Devon yell, thank you but I need to handle this myself. And before I know it, the words just slipped out of my mouth...

Briar

I can't believe this. Did I really just lost my best friend. No it can't be true. I decide to walk back, to see what's going on because I hear som gasps and Devon yelling "Hey back off!" And then I hear Myles, "You know what! I know that I mabye screwed up!" Mabye, really Myles. He keeps on going, "But did you just heard what she said, how can you live with your self, you hurt her. And I know I did to, but at least I still care about her. Because I do, I care about her more than everyone. I love that girl, and now she hates me. And do you wanna hear the worst part. I can't even help her, because I can't tell her how I feel, and how I have felt in a really long time now. So can you just let me go, because I need to find her. And if I want to talk to her, that means that I need to tell her, how I feel, so that's what I'm going to do!" He shouts, and turns around to run after me. I don't know what to say, I'm speachless. Do Myles love me? Do I love Myles? Of couse I do! But I've just never knew it, before a couple days ago.

When he turns around, his eyes meet mine when he sees me.
"You already did." I say. Oh Myles, he looks terified. Don't he knows that I feel the exact same way.
I was about to take a step closer, when he quickly turns around and runs out of the doors. Why did he do that? Has he changed his mind about me?
When everyone sees him run out, they turn their heads to see who said that. "Briar?" Jessy says, and walks over to me. But I just can't handle the pettines right now. So I run...

Okay, I know that that was a really long chapter sorry... But I hope you liked it😊

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