The start of something good - Bryles

22 - You're never done

Briar's POV:

"Hey?" Jessy says softly, as I just woke up in the bed that we're sharing. "Hey." I mumble closing my eyes again. Ugh this hole Myles thing is driving me crazy. I love having him so close, but at the same time it's heartbreaking cause I know that we will never be together. "You ok?" She asks me, sitting up in the bed. "I'm fine I guess, this is all just so much. I don't like the fact that I have to be away from my dad this long." I sigh, and I feel the tears right behind my eyes, just waiting to flood out. "Oh Briar, I'm sure that he'll be fine. You're mom is there right?" She says, grapping me in for a hug, pressing me against her chest. Aww, she's the best. I love her. "Thank you so much Jessy." I sob, wrapping my arms around her. "Hey, that's what you have best friends for." Yeah, that's right.
"Are you two coming?" Katie suddenly asks, stepping into our room. "Oh sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt anything." She says sympathetic. "No no, it's fine. We'll be there in a few minutes." I say, letting go of Jessy.
"Are you sure Briar?" She asks me, as Katie left my room. "Yes, I'll be there in a few minutes, you can just go." I say, as I also sit staright up in the bed. "You sure?" She asks me one more time before standing up. "Yes. Just tell Michael that I'm a little late for breakfast." I say, and with a little nod she leaves the room.

Soon I also hear the frontdoor closing, meaning that I'm alone again. All alone...
I don't wanna be alone, I want Myles. I want him forever and always. I want him to be mine. I want him to call me baby and kiss me, I want him to hold me close and tell me that everything is gonna be ok. I need him. I need my Myles.
But he's not mine... he's Katies.

I get up, and put on some clothes, and as I was about to do a little make up, I look myself in the mirror. Who even am I? I don't know who I am anymore. I don't feel worth it. I don't want to do all of this anymore. I just wanna get away... just for a while. I just want him to love me! Is that to much to ask for? And I want my dad to be healthy, but I guess I can't get that either. I don't have anything left to fight for. I lost my dad, my hero, my rock and my goodnightstory. I lost Myles, my love, my best friend. I'm just gonna accept the fact that he's never gonna be more than that. But can I do that?

I don't want this anymore! I wanna go home. I want everything to go back in time. To when I didn't have a crush on Mike, and then I might would've been able to tell Myles how I really felt. Now it's to late, he has a girlfriend, and I don't wanna be a bitch and ruin that.
But something could go right, right? I guess you never know.

I don't know for how long I've been standing here looking at myslef, but I know taht I can't do that anymore. I need her to stop looking at me. I don't want her to watch me like this.
I quickly grap the sopebottle, and trough it against the mirror, breaking both items into thousand pieces.

Just as I did that I gear someone shout my name far away. Myles?
"Bri?!" He exclaims, stepping into the bathroom. My back is turned against him, but I can still see him trough the last pieces of glass in the mirror.
"I'm done." I sob, as I quietly break down, but luckily a pair of strong arms wraps itself around me, gently placing me on his lab on the floor. "No you're not." He says, getting a tight grip onto me, wiping my tears away with his other hand. "Briar you're never done." He mumbles kissing my forehead. "And if you're done, I'm done too." With that I turn my blurred vision to his face. Though I can't see much, I can still see tears spilling down his cheeks. "I'm sorry... I just can't watch you this hurt without getting hurt myself." He says, digging his head into my hair. After a while of sitting there, just clambered to each other, he pulls slightly away, and I can see some of my hair is stuck on his tearwet cheeks. "Briar we're a package, you and I. You're sad, I'm sad. You're happy, I'm happy. You're done, I'm done." He says, making me cry even more. He's way to good. I wish that I could tell him how much I love him.

We don't get to sit there for long, untill the frontdoor opens again, and Michaels voice fills the air, "Briar! Myles! You in here?!" But none of us answers. We just sit there. "Answer me please!" He shouts again, and you can hear his footstep come closer.
"Oh my god!" He says, as he proberbly looked into the room.
"What happend here?" Another voice ask, oh that's Katie, great...
"Briar?" A third voice asks, which belongs to Jessy, "What's going on?" But we still don't move or anything, the only thing I feel is Myles' hands tightly wrapped around me, and his head digging further into my hair.
"You're never done B." He suddenly mumbles, making it go all silent again. "What?" Michael asks from behind us, but then he's quiet again.

I love you! I love you! I love you!
That's everything I really wanna say.

"Briar?" Myles softly wispers, still not moving. I don't even think that I'm abble to speak right now, but luckily I don't have to, cause he says everything. "You have so many people who loves you, and needs you. So many people who is never ever going to do amything to hurt you, cause who can ever have the guts to hurt you." He wispers making tears roll down my cheeks, and I can feel tears dripling onto my shoulder too. "I love you, I need you and I'm never forgiving myslef for hurting you." He loves me? "Your mom loves you, she needs you. Your dad loves you, and he needs you to be as strong as possible, even though we all know that that's impossible right now." Ok so I guess he just meant like a friendlove... "Jessy loves you, Devon loves you, Abbry loves you, my mom loves you, and not to mention my brothers." He says making me giggle, yeah even though he only meant that he love me like a friend or a sister, he still helped me. He always knows how to help me.

"So Briar Anne Yoko Nolet," He says making me smile through my tears as he used my full name, "You're never done. You're not done untill the day that you're getting pulled out of my arms, and I don't have any chance to hold onto you. But that's not gonna happen." He wispers, before softly kissing my neck.

He pulls slightly away, placing both hands on my cheeks, looking me in the eyes. I don't even think he remembers that Michael, Jessy and Katie is looking at us. "You heard what I said?" He asks me, and I slowly nod my head. "Yes, I heard you." I wisper, once again wrapping my arms around him...

Ok I'm gonna be honest with you, I cried a little as I wrote this...😢❤️
But I really hope you like it!

Keep on rocking the world out there...🤘🏻🌍