After a botched marriage proposal, followed by a startling revelation from Blayne, both she and Rocky's relationship is left hanging in the balance, when the two decide to take a step back and reevaluate themselves.
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Blayne
Change is inevitable.
That's one thing that I've learned throughout my life.
Change.
You can't stop or fight it, because it's gonna come.
No matter what.
I just wasn't expecting it to happen this fast. It's been nine whole days since I've seen or heard from Rocky,and it was quickly killing me...eating me...swallowing me alive. I couldn't think rationally anymore, couldn't eat, or sleep.
There were times where I couldn't even write, or record.
So I just stayed still.
Silent.
I've never felt a hurt and pain hit me so bad before...ever, except for when Brook died.
Losing Rocky was equivalent to that.
Everything that occurred back in Wyoming was exactly what I expected...minus all the yelling. I already knew that once coming clean to Rocky, would result in the demise of our relationship.
I already knew, but I sucked that shit up and still took that chance, because there was no way I was going to accept his proposal with something like that hanging in the back of my mind, completely tearing me apart. Although the results that I hoped for didn't surpass, and I put our entire relationship on the line for truth, I still did not regret doing what I did.
Everything was out, and I didn't have to hide anymore.
No matter what anyone else said or thought.
Today was June twenty ninth, two more days and this month would be over.
It killed me to know that I would soon be going into a new month alone. Thoughts of Rocky, along with his voice, filled both my head and my ears, as I sunk deeper into this tub. I don't know how long I've been in here, and I didn't care.
I just knew that I never wanted to leave.
Sitting deep into the depths of this tub, locked in my bathroom seemed to be the only place I felt most safe these days, as opposed to Rocky's arms.
I didn't feel safe anywhere else.
I wasn't even sure if I could truly feel anymore.
Everything was numb to me.
Everything.
I lost my best friend.
I lost someone who truly meant the entire world to me.
Someone who actually got and understood me.
Someone who took me on even after I told him that I was liable of fucking up...even still he took that chance.
