Stories

Simon

Every day was the same, the thoughts, overwhelming and suicidal. But it felt like it was my only choice, my only sanctuary. So, I gave in, I had no friends, no one looked at me, no one cared, I walked to that edge and watched my life flash before my eyes, my worthless life.

"Simon"

I heard a voice from behind, that of a woman, one I have heard before, around the school, around my life.

"Simon, please, step down from that edge"

Her words, though calming, stung.

"WHY SHOULD I? WHAT IS THE POINT OF GOING THROUGH ALL THIS SHIT, WHY SHOULD I STEP DOWN? WHO CARES ABOUT ME? WHO WOULD WANT TO CARE ABOUT ME"'

I felt the wind in my face.

"Simon, people do care about you"

"LIKE WHO?"

"Simon, I care about you"

"YOU DON'T KNOW ME, YOU NEVER TALK TO ME, I DON'T KNOW WHO YOU EVEN ARE "

"Simon, I care about you, I always have, I've... I've just been scared to talk to you, or to anyone, I can't talk to anyone, I know how you feel, I know what all of this feels like"

"YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT ME"

"Simon... you have to believe me,"

"WHY SHOULD I?"

"Because.... Simon... I know what it feels like to be alone, to have no one care, to be bullied and hurt, I know exactly how it feels. Simon, you have to believe me when I say I care about you."

I started to tear up and cry while the wind dried my tears.

"Why... Why do you care about me...? What worth do I have...?"

"You have so much worth, you need to remember that, remember the times that you are happy"

I turned to look at her, she looked calm, I had seen her before.

"I... I know you... you... you are the girl that keeps looking at me... wherever I go..."

"So, you noticed that"

She started to blush.

"Why are you here..."

"Because Simon, I care about you, and..."

"and...?"

"And... Simon... I have... a crush on you..."

She stared at me and the words rung through my ears, tears started streaming down my face.

"Why... Why me...? Out of all the people in this god forsaken world, why me....?"

"Because you are amazing, you are so so amazing, I want to help you. I will help you"

She started to slowly walk closer.

"please don't... don't walk closer... I'm a lost cause... I will only hurt you..."

"No, you won't, Simon. I know you won't"

I just stood there, on the edge, the wind on my face, I didn't know what to say, or what to do.

"It is okay Simon. Everything will be okay"

Her words were soothing and calming. I just stood still, for the first time I felt cared about.

I felt her hand touch mine.

"Come down, please, Simon"

Like clockwork I did, I stepped down from the edge, and started to cry on her lap, She hugged me and held me close.

"Everything will be okay, Simon, I am here for you,

I love you"