【low battery】MEANIE

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『新的開始』

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『new beginnings』

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It isn't until later that Wonwoo remembers what Seungcheol had told him.

"The truth is, I still love you."

Well.

Fuck???

Wonwoo sighs and shakes himself out of it.

He glances at Mingyu's sleeping figure and smiles.

"Thanks for always being here for me," Wonwoo murmurs softly, leaning his face closer to Mingyu's. "I hope you know that you mean a lot to me."

The taller male suddenly stirs and rolls over, opening his eyes and smirking. "That's so adorable, Wonwoo. I feel the same way about you."

Wonwoo freezes. "You- Mingyu, how could you." He shifts away from Mingyu, flustered.

Mingyu laughs loudly, sitting up. "I had to. I'm sorry." He wraps Wonwoo in a hug and softly nuzzles him, making the latter's legs feel weak.

"It's okay, I'll forgive you this time." Wonwoo jokes as he inhales, breathing in Mingyu's calm, comforting scent that always makes him feel at ease.

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Seungcheol hears footsteps approaching him, and looks up to see Wonwoo. His heart clenches painfully but he tries to smile to hopefully lighten up the mood a tiny bit, though the topic isn't light whatsoever.

"Hi," Seungcheol greets him hesitantly.

"Hey." Wonwoo replies simply, sitting down.

"I didn't think you'd come." Seungcheol admits, running a hand through his thick hair.

"Why wouldn't I?" Wonwoo shrugs. "There's too much I'm confused about, and we just... We have to talk."

"Right." Seungcheol agrees. "Let's talk, then..."

"Okay." Wonwoo nods.

A second of silence passes.

"So when you told me all those times that you understood what I was going through... Did you mean it?" Wonwoo asks.

That's one of the things that hurts Seungcheol the most. He meant it all, he meant it with all his heart. But the past is the past, and what he did on that last day changed everything. No matter what he says or does now, he can't change the past, he can't somehow just prove to Wonwoo that he meant it all. The world doesn't work like that.

"I know you'll have trouble believing this. Anyone would." Seungcheol says, squeezing his eyes shut. "I meant it all." He wants to say something more, but he doesn't know what to say. The words seem empty like air, and he wants to slap himself in frustration. He can't even express ho he feels in words, it's just a jumbled up ball of emotions that twists around in his chest, constricting around his heart tightly, not allowing him to breathe.

When he opens his eyes, Wonwoo is looking at him. Not with an angry or hurt expression. He just looks like he's thinking.

"I already know that I'm really really stupid and an asshole so please don't remind me again," Seungcheol says, breaking the silence, closing his eyes again. "I hate myself too, if that makes you feel any better. I'm sorry. I know nothing can make up for what I've done, but I'm sorry. With all my life, I'm so sorry." Before he knows it, he feels his eyes getting wet, and feels tears start to drop from his eyes, making small dots on the fabric of his jeans. He wipes them away roughly, angrily.