The Eyes Of An Angel

Chapter 3

Chapter 3:

When i woke up the next morning, i asked my mom if i could stay home from school. She said no, she hates me too. To her, im just some kid she adopted. My mom died in the car crash and my dad had a heart attack a year before we got in the car crash. So she adopted me. Her name is Carrie Dishmie. I didnt take her last name though, i kept my last name. Carrie is a single mom who got divorced. She doesnt really care what i do as long as i go to school. She makes me call her mom. But i just cant. I want my real mom. My mom was like a mom to Harry too, he was like my brother. He-i cant think about him. I have to forget him.

I packed my lunch and my bag and started walking to school. I looked down at the ground and see my wrists. I forgot my bracelets! I ran to the house and grabbed them and walked to school. It's friday, thats the good thing. Classes went by slowly all day. Then it was lunch time. As i was walking to the cafeteria, i heard people calling me fat. Am i really that fat? Oh no...

When i got to the cafeteria i just threw away my lunch, i dont want to be fat, maybe if i starve myself then i will loose weight. I looked around the room and once again, i saw Harry and his friends laughing at me. Harry walked over to me so i got up and walked away. Im not dealing with him right now.

Then i heard Harry and his friends calling me fat and overweight. No, am i really fat? No no no no no! I cant..i have to starve myself. I cant be fat.

The rest of the day went by slow. All day i heard people laughing at me and making fun of me.

When i got home, i went up to my room and started crying really hard. I grabbed my razor again and slit my wrist one more time. If this is how Harry and all of his friends want to play that game then they can go ahead and do it. I guess im really ugly and fat, if thats what everyone is saying...

I started crying and my phone started ringing. I didnt look at the caller id, and i regret that. I answer the phone and hear Harry's voice.

"Alexis!" he says. "I didnt think you would pick up!"

"Me either.." i say under my breath.

"Look, im really sorry and-" i interrupt him, "look, if you are truly sorry then why do you keep doing it? Huh? Exactly, you arent sorry. Stop lying to me about being sorry Harry!!" tears are running down my face and i think he can hear me crying.

"im sorry. Im not lying! I truly am sorry. Please believe me Alexis...and i can hear you crying, please stop..im sorry!" Harry tells me.

"You didnt answer my question Harrold!" i scream at him.

"im sorry.." he says quietly.

"then answer my question!" i say angrily.

"i..i..i dont know. I honestly dont know..." he says a little louder.

I hang up. Yeah, you dont know. If you dont know then stop. I need to forget him. As soon as i can. Im going to forget him, even if its hard.