Colored In - (got7)

trainee :: jackson [2]

"BOY! You said we'd be eating healthy!!! Why we eating meat!?!"

Jackson giggles as he uses his chopsticks to grab another piece of the Korean barbecue and put it in his mouth. The smells from the grill and the food, fill my senses and send messages to my stomach. It growls with response but I refuse to listen to it as I sit there with my arms folded, looking at my boyfriend.

"This iissss healthy!! The calories are lower than the regular meat you find! Organic stuff!"

I scoff and he just laughs. Honestly, I wanna eat, but I'm risking my diet if I do. I was told to be a certain amount of pounds. I haven't reached that goal yet...The other trainee girls always judge me about it. They've reached their goal, but 5 months hasn't been enough for me.

I look down to my stomach and poke it, it grumbles like thunder and I frown getting taken aback. Jackson puts down his chopsticks, noticing what I was doing, and he gets up from his chair across from me. I look at him confused but then he sits his butt down in the chair next to me.

"You're doing it again babygirl! I told you before! You're just right! Don't worry about diets! Worry about your appetite!"

She's a fat little black girl..
No way korea will accept this piece of black shit.
Why the hell did PD nim pick her anyways? Look at her!

Words from the trainee girls, fly around my head. My frown grows bigger. Jackson notices and immediately grabs my chopsticks and gets a piece of meat, he shoves it in my mouth and makes me chew it with his hand moving my jaw.

"You need to take care of yourself, Charae!! Who cares what people think."

I swallow what was in my mouth as Jackson feeds me another piece again.

"Irm fert!" I try telling him as I chew.

"What?"

I roll my eyes and swallow again, "I said I'm fat."

Jackson shakes his head, "You're not! Listen babygirl. Don't worry about diet or weight or anything like that. Don't listen to anyone who tries to tell you you're fat. You're not. Their words only fill up your thoughts and then your brain starts to believe it. They're wrong."

I look at him as he talks to me, worry in his eyes for me, but a smile growing on his lips.

"You know what's the best thing about being in JYPE? There's no weight requirements, it's just mandatory that you take care of yourself. Taking care of yourself isn't dieting when you don't have to. It's eating right, sleeping well, and staying fit. And you, Charae, for the past 5 months, have not been taking care of yourself. You've been dieting when you don't have to, missing sleep, and overworking."

He feeds me another piece of meat before talking again, "As your boyfriend, it's my job to make sure you're taking care of yourself. So, from now on, no more diets, and don't listen to anyone who tries to make you feel like you have weight. Okay?!"

I swallow what was in my mouth and I felt a smile curve on my lips.

"Thanks Jackson..you're right..."

"Hehehe aren't I always babygirl?!" He wiggles his eyebrows and I laugh.

This boy always brought me up when I was feeling unsure. He kisses my now greasy cheek and chuckles as he grabs a napkin to wipe off the barbecue from my face.