Fatigué ➳ jjk+kth

iii

I want to wake up, I hate this dream
-Save Me

i asked you if we could go on a date, like we always do.

you said no, you were busy.

there was no hesitancy.

no double checks to the calendar to confirm your packed schedule.

nothing.

nothing but a stiff answer, tense body and curled lips of displeasure.

i tried not to cry.

tried not to allow the tears that brimmed at my eyes, begging, pleading to be granted freedom.

i only turned my face away from your vision, swallowing back choked sobs, silently imploring that you wouldn't see my glassy eyes.

you didn't.

you never once looked in my direction.