Fatigué ➳ jjk+kth

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Only fools fall for you, only fools
- Fools

it's gone.

the colours.

they pinks, yellows, blues, reds and greens.

all of them.

gone.

i was the blind and you, you were my artist, painting the world for me.

but now your gone.

everything.

everything is in a haze of grey and white, disfigured and blotchy.

unfamiliar.

i hate it.

i hate this relationship that withers unsteadily, scrabbling at the surface with calloused fingers.

i hate this pain.

i hate the knives that carve my skin, hidden by oversized hoodies.

i hate the skin resting over my bones, for it is not perfect for you.

you deserve the best.

and i am not.

i am ugly, with my much too large eyes, thin lips, flat cheeks, dirty hair and an unusual smile.

i am fat, with my thick things, bloated arms and stomach.

i am plain, with a blank personality and no definition of joy.

i am useless, with no reason on the earth.

i am not him.

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Can I just say that if you are having these self-hate thoughts please talk to someone. You are not alone. You are perfect as you are. Do not change yourself for someone. If they can't take you as your best they do not deserve you.

I'm always here for anyone to speak to if your feeling like this and so is the entire society.

Love Yourself <3