Back to the Ground

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        Whenever I get to spend time with my mom, I cherish it. She spends a lot of time at work and I never really spend time at home. So that morning when she said we were heading out for the day, I was more than excited. Throughout the day we talked about how my life has been, what my class life was gonna be like, a whole bunch of stuff. And of course, like every conversation I have it came back to Finn.
"Hanna, I know you probably don't want to talk about it, but where are your standings with Finn?"
"Mom can I be completely honest with you?"
"I expect you to be."
"Okay, well I'm still so in love with him it hurts. I miss the way his hugs and kisses feel. I miss having his hands in mine. I miss hearing his laugh. I miss his ridiculous texts. I miss everything. But I'm still hurt and I'm still scared. But I just want to be with him."
"Sweetie, have I ever told you about David Elder?"
"No...who's that?"
"He was the first boy I was ever in love with. We dated for a little over 2 years. He made me so happy, but the thing was. I missed him even when he was there. And that's how I know that the way you're feeling isn't just stupid young love. I mean you are stupid and young but that's beside the point. You are genuinely infatuated with him, so why are you letting a little fear stop you?"
I sat there for a second. My thoughts were racing, what was stopping me? And then it hit me.
"I'm letting fear stop me because even though it's genuinely love, I also felt so incredibly hurt. I want to be 100% sure I won't feel it again."
She laughed heartily at that
"What's so funny mom?"
"Hunny, you'll feel that hurt so many times. You're wasting this fear on something where you should be fearless."

My mom just made me even more confused. But my decision still stands.