Lost memories.

Weakness

James

"Hey, its me again and i was just wondering if you wanted to do something this weekend- thats if youre not busy ofcourse. Can you please text me or something when you get this. I miss you..."

Yet again another voice message from Millie. I feel really bad for not talking to her lately. And it doesnt really help the situation since i stopped talking to her after the arguement. What if she starts to think im going to break up with her or something? Oh god! Didnt think of that did i?

"You should go you know," Rebecca says softly. She has been looking a lot better these days and she's stopped being sick. Its nice to just be around her without having to constantly worry and to just see her somewhat happy.

"I know but i couldnt leave you. I mean what if-"

"James, im the reason why all this has happened. Do you really think that she is going to be happy to know that you blew her off just to keep me company?"

"Millie will understand, she always does."

"Exactly, and you take that for granted and then push your limits. Just because she is nice to everyone doesnt mean that you should abuse her kindness with your weakness and just throw everything back in her face." She's right, i do occasionally take things for granted. But the thing is, we've been having really good days and im scared that if i leave her , something might happen and i might not be there to say goodbye. And i dont really feel like going anywhere and doing anything because i know that my mind will be somewhere else the entire time and that will probably lead us to have another arguement.

"I'll just see her at school. I need to go back anyway 'cause its not just her i need to talk to, its Vince too." Just the thought of him makes me so angry. I bet he is enjoying every moment we are apart. Me and Millie, i mean.But i swear if he so much as touches a hair on her head, i will kill him.

"Fine, its your funeral my friend," she winks.

"That wasnt funny."