My Kind of Perfect // raryn [COMPLETED]

14 - dream

R Y A N

Juliet and Gerald called me downstairs just like every morning, but today I knew something was wrong. When my foot reached the last step, I noticed a face I thought I'd never see again. But instead of talking to her, I just grabbed my coat and left the house.

No way in hell is my mother coming back into my life again. I went to the beach, which seemed to be my go to place nowadays. It's was small and peaceful, barely anyone was ever there so I guess I found comfort in that.

I sighed kicking the water, thinking how did she get out early? She wouldn't of behaved in prison, so why is she here? I wanted to scream out loud, but I couldn't. I just had to hold it in like always.

I stared at the horizon remembering mine and Aryn's first kiss, and how everything literally turned to shit afterwards. It was like that kiss triggered our distance. And it physically hurt me.

"Why would he give up so early? Why would I give up so early?" I muttered angrily to myself.

"It's stupid. Jimin was wrong, we ain't made for each other," I kicked the water once again, angry at this fucked up planet and my fucked up life. I froze when I seen Yui walked down the beach, talking to Aryn.

"Why is he always here?" I whispered before leaving the beach, without them noticing I was there. I sighed, and walked down the street. I just kept walking, ignoring my surroundings as I was thinking about my entire existence.

"Maybe I'm just a waste?" I asked myself as I stopped in my tracks.

"Maybe I wasn't supposed to be here and that's why my life is so shit. Maybe my destiny is to kill myself." I spoke out loud.

"No it's not kid," I heard a woman's voice. I looked over to notice I was on a bridge, she was sitting on the fence separating the ocean and the road. She was wearing all white, even her hair was pure white.

"How do you know?" I asked her walking  closer. She smiled softly.

"Because you're Ryan, no one else but Ryan. Yes, your life is hard and terrible, but you do belong here, because I was the one who put you here," I stared at her dancing smile and then to her opened blue eyes.

"W-What?"

"I put you here because I needed to see how strong you really are, and if you give out on me now, I will just have to punish you even more in your afterlife," with that, she fell off the bridge. I yelled, trying to grab her. She wasn't a ghost, I knew that, because I could feel her fingers as I tried to grab her hand, but easily her fingers slipped out of mine like butter.

I stared at the mist of fog blocking my view from anything. She wasn't there anymore. Am I going crazy?

"You love Aryn, you just don't believe yourself," I turned around and instantly I was in the cafeteria in school. I was sitting in front of my pink haired friend, who was eating some kimchi.

"Jimin?" I whispered and he looked at me with his mouth full.

"What?" He asked after swallowing his food.

"I had a really weird dream I think-"

"Yeah you're still having it. Anyway, you and Aryn love one another but you being you, you're too stubborn and just plain stupid to not go up to Aryn and confess!" Jimin said slamming his chopsticks on the table.

"Seriously Ryan, if you don't do it now, when will you do it?"

I instantly woke up when I felt the sun rays on my skin. I sat up as quick as I could, my heart beating faster than usual.

"Ryan, breakfast." Juliet knocked on my door before leaving. I stared out the window, trying to comprehend what the hell my dream was about.

I just left my room and went downstairs to see Juliet and Lucille, Gerald was sitting at the table with his arms folded when I sat down.

"Ryan, how would you feel if I said your mother was getting out of prison?" Gerald asked me after a long few moments of silence. I looked at him, blinking blankly at him.

"What?" I asked confused and emotionless.

"Your mother is after getting out early, and requested to see you." I just shook my head standing up. My fingers found their way to my hair as I walked upstairs again. I quickly threw on some clothes and left the house.

I walked to the entrance of the beach before I stopped and just stood there.

Aryn is always there. What if he's there again?

I sighed and just walked into the beach. No one was there, like usual, but I noticed Aryn standing at the shore line. I slowly walked up to him, and stood beside him.

"Oh hey Ryan," he muttered and I nodded at him to tell him hi.

"Listen I gotta-"

"Aryn, I like you." I instantly ripped off the bandaid. I knew the Jimin in my dreams was right and I had to do this, it was the right thing to do, but I knew the timing wasn't right. Aryn just looked at me blankly.

"I have for a long time. Jimin was helping me recognise my feelings for you, he helped me set up this whole thing to ask you out, but you ignored me for months. But I guess it's too late now. I just needed to tell you and not regret it later on in my life."

"I guess I'll just leave now, sorry for all the trouble I caused you." As I began to walk away, Aryn's hand wrapped itself around my wrist.

"Ryan, don't leave," he muttered. I froze not looking at him.

"I liked you too," it hurt knowing he did like me before.

"But I don't like you now." He said in a soft voice. "But I can still be your friend."

"Friends seem fine." I replied softly.

"Friends?"

"Friends."

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