My Kind of Perfect // raryn [COMPLETED]

13 - regret and weakness

•song has no relation to the chapter but it's a fucking good son so listen to it plz and support 5SOS in their comebackkkkkk•
SIX MONTHS LATER

R Y A N

Time seemed to grown slower and slower as each day past. Every day I would walk into the kitchen to see Juliet and Lucille making something and I'd see Gerald at the table when he isn't working, it was just continuous.

Jimin actually left America six months early due to his fathers job transferring him back to Korea, but we still stay in contact but it's just boring without him here because he was my only friend.

"Why don't you go out and make new friends?" Juliet would smile and ask me on a daily basis, but today when she asked, I actually obeyed and went out.

The trees were swaying slightly with the wind, the sun shining down. I seen that a lot of kids were out and about, teenagers were sitting down gossiping outside of houses,  but I kept walking listening to Bite by Troy's Sivan.

I finally reached the beach at me and Aryn shared our first kiss, to my surprise he was actually standing at gangs shore line, looking at the ocean. I slowly took out my earphones and walked up beside him.

"Hey," I muttered. He looked down at me and gave me a small delicate smile.

"Hi." His voice was weak and seemed to be on the edge of breaking.

"Are you okay?" I asked him confused as I wrapped my earphones around my phone before putting them in my back pocket.

"It's just some relationship shit," Aryn muttered sitting down cross legged.

"From what I can remember I can listen, so you can rant on about it if you want," I told him as I sat beside him.

"We just broke up for no reason. It's annoying me, cause it hurts so much." He muttered. I sighed pulling my knees to my chest.

"How did you think I felt?" I whispered and Aryn looked at me. I took a deep breath and looked at him.

"Aryn the thing is I didn't just lose someone I liked, but I lost a friend, no explanation, nothing. You did the exact same thing to me six months ago."

"That's cause you and Jimin were dating!" Aryn angrily spoke. I stared at him confused shaking my head.

"Jimin has a boyfriend in Korea, where he is right now, so in fact I lost two friends," I told him becoming angry.

"It fucking hurts, that I understand but just get over it. Everyone is able to, so your no fucking different." I muttered standing up. I began to walk away from him, huffing out loud.

A R Y N

How could I have been so stupid?!

Of course Jimin wasn't Ryan's boyfriend, and I dated that fucking idiot to get the pain from Jimin and Ryan's non existent relationship out of my head.

I guess I messed up. I sighed falling back in the sand. I messed up big time, like big big time. I should've just talked to Ryan about it. But I guess that it was a stupid reason to stop talking to him in the first place.

I should've been happy for him if he was dating Jimin, but Ryan is going through a lot of pain from losing his friend and someone he likes.

I just can't believe I was so gullible and listened to my ex. I should've asked like a normal person.

But regret will be my biggest weakness.

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LISTEN OKAY? I KNOW ITS HELLA SHORT AND SHIT BUT LIKE I HAVE NO IDEAS AND JRS TURNING TO SHIT OMFG BUT TODAY WAS SORTA SHIT UNTIL I LEFT SCHOOL TO FIND OUT 5SOS IS BACK AND JUNG Hoseok (JHOPE FROM BTS) IS HAVING HIS HIXTAPE REALISED MARCH 2ND!!! GREAT DAY FOR MUSIC INDUSTRYYYYY

- b x