My Kind of Perfect // raryn [COMPLETED]

16 - missing him

A R Y N

I miss it.

I miss the way Ryan was the only reason I smiled in school, I miss the way he wasn't standing at his locker, waiting for me to come over to him. I miss the way Ryan was the first person I would talk to in school. I miss the way he spoke. I miss the way he laughed. I miss the way he smiled. I miss the way he would stare at me. I miss the way he would drag me down the hall and I miss the way he was the only person who could make my heart beat faster and faster in seconds.

I miss him.

Going to school, knowing that I would not see him. It was like my own personal hell of regret. Regret for my stupid idiotic head.

"Hey Aryn, where Ryan-" our art teacher stopped and stared at me but I continued walking. Ignoring her presence and just stayed in my own world as I dragged my feet along the tiled floor.

The day dragged on, it seemed to never end. But when the day ended, I instantly jumped up from my seat and ran towards the hospital. It's been a routine for a while now for me to run to the hospital after school, Juliet and Gerald also know this as well. That's why they usual make the nurse give me food.

The nurse smiled widely at me as she passed me a packed lunch, with a sticky note on it.

"Please eat Aryn, he wouldn't want you in danger too - juliet"

I sighed, knowing Juliet was right. So I took my place outside of Ryan's room and quietly ate the food. After finishing the food, I tucked the package neatly into my school bag before looking in the window. 

The same sight. 

Ryan was laying lifeless on the bed, barely able to breathe on his own.  The sight alone broke me. He looked so innocent, so pure, despite everything he has been through. He just accepted what life threw at him and made the most of it. Its something I admire from Ryan. 

With my forehead pressed against the cold bulletproof glass, a single tear rolled down my cheek. I only now realised how broken Ryan is. How he had to survive almost eighteen years of hell, and seven years protecting his sister, everything he ever did wasn't for himself. It was for protection. 

He made sure that he was both of his parents for Lucille and himself, he made sure to always be happy around her so she would not have a bad out come in life because of two fucked up people. Ryan single hand saved his sister from two demons, he saved her and himself. But somehow, life flipped around on him too fast, but he still managed to protect Lucille. He managed to do everything, but this time.

This time he forgot to save himself. 

I wanted to save him, oh god knows how I wanted to save him, but now, the only way for Ryan to be normal and to wake up is if he saves himself once again. 

With my toes of my shoes pressed up against the light blue wall, my hands in my pockets, with forehead pressed against the glass and tears rolling down my face, I made Ryan a promise. 

"The  second you wake up, I am going to protect you from this fucked up world, even if its the last thing I do."

I promised Ryan my life. He let me into his, but I am willing to sacrifice my life if I need to, just to save him. And this time, I will stick to that damn promise. 

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R Y A N

I sat on the chair beside my lifeless body, staring at the now crying Aryn. I almost broke down seeing him cry, but now he knows how I felt. I kept staring at him until his sad and depressed expression was wiped away and replaced with a determined and protective expression.

"The second you wake up, I am going to protect you from this fucked up world, even if its the last thing I do."

I stared at him as the world easily fell from his lips. A wide smile crossed my face, he really did care about me. He just doesn't know how to show it. 

I stood up and hovered above my body, staring at it then back to Aryn. I crossed my arms and sighed. 

"Maybe I should wake up," I softly said as I watched Aryn wipe the fallen tears on his cheeks. My lips curled up as I watched him sniffle. 

"I'll put him out of his misery." With a chuckle I held my body's hand. Suddenly my eyes flickered opened. All I could see was a white light. 

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HI HELLO! SO HERES ANOTHER UPDATE ITS SHORT BUT I HAVE TWO WEEKS OFF FOR EASTER AND I ALSO GOT A NEW COMPUTER SO ITS AWESOME! ILL TRY UPDATE AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!

OH DO YOU THINK RYAN WOKE UP OR IS IT THE WHITE LIGHT YOU SEE BEFORE DEATH? ;) WAAIIITTTT TO SEEEEEE NEXT TIME

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