Back At Their Side (completed)

Part Fourteen - Collared

POV Tara
They sat each side of me as I ate, picking at the selection on the tray in silence until I was done and Matt removed the tray to the table before coming back to the bed.
I looked between them, knowing the conversation was going to be difficult for them as well as me.
Matt cleared his throat and I looked at him "Tara can you say his name again, confirm to me who hurt you, who abused you and who else was involved and when"
I picked at the soft robe and pulled it tighter knowing I had to do this for them.
"The first time Brian touched me was at the apartment and then tried to do more, when I told Caroline she smacked me and called me a liar and said not to say anything to you" I took a deep breath "the second attack was just Caroline she pinched me and caused a bruise and threatened me, she was angry Matt was paying me attention, then the last time was Caroline took me to Brian and he..he..he did things and took pictures then Caroline lied about the accident" I looked between them "I couldn't go on after that, when you touched me I saw his face, heard his voice and her laugh, even though I knew it was you, I couldn't get past them, what they did and I was terrified they would be back and next time it would be worse"
Matt took my hand and raised it to his lips "good girl"
I looked at Phil "please don't let them know I'm back, I can't go though that again" I begged.
"You're safe here, no one knows we are here, only the staff on duty and I trust them" he replies.
"Will, you let me go" I ask quietly.
"Never" Phil replies.
"Never" Matt echoes.
A silent tear tracks down my face, "I'm too broken."
"Your not, this morning we have challenged two areas, you let Matt and I hold you, so our touch is not a trigger and you can now say his name, the fear associated with his name is weakening and soon it will be gone"
I look at them silently wondering if they can really help, before this happened I had been happy, overwhelmed and insecure but happy with them.

"I have something for you" Philips words drew my attention back to him as he reached into the bedside draw and withdrew a long box and handed it to me.
I carefully opened it to reveal my collar, the same collar Phil had put on me our first weekend, I hesitated before stroking my finger across the soft leather and sparkling stones, so beautiful but I could also feel the fear the collar brought. The fear of being tied down.
I raised my eyes to his closing the box and handing it back with a shake of my head.
He took the box and opened it removing the collar, tossing the box back in the draw he ran the collar through his fingers and I shook, my eyes transfixed on the collar.
Matt moved slowly up behind me gently stroking my hair over to one side and circling my neck with his hands, his thumbs massaging the tense muscles in my neck, tilting my head, but my eyes stayed locked on the collar even as Matts lips connect with my throat and he sucks gently causing tingles to spread over my body as he marks me.
Phil reaches for my hand and puts the collar into it before moving closer at Matts retreat, his lips move to the other side of my throat where he too sucks, gently at first before adding more pressure. I knew both sides of my neck now carried their marks and I shivered.
"Will you wear you collar for us" Matt asks softly, his lips now exploring my shoulders.
My hand tightens around it at his words.
"Just for us, no one else will ever command you, no one will touch you again without your permission" Phil promises his lips now on my ear lobe, tugging and teasing in between his words.
I can feel the collar heavy in my hand as they continue their seduction and persuasion with touches and words. My robe has gone and Phil's inching the gown up over my body leaving me exposed to them, my grip around the collar reminds me it's there and again my body and mind remembers the feel of it round me neck, proclaiming me as theirs and no one else's.  I grab Phil's hand and put the collar back in it "yes" I agree quietly and they still at my words "you will wear your collar again?" Phil asks.
"Yes" I agree again.
"You know what this will mean" Matt questions wanting me to be sure about what I was agreeing to.
"Yes" I agree making eye contact with them both. "I know what this will mean and I want to try, but I am scared and I'm not sure what will trigger the fear but I'm done running" and I was, saying the words made me feel lighter.
Matt reached down and took the collar from Phil's hand and I lifted my hair to give him access, tensing as I feel the first touch around my neck but relaxing as tightens, it felt right.
"Your worries are now ours Tara, you don't need to think of them anymore, outside this room you are my wife and Matts partner but inside this room we are your masters, wherever we are, we will protect you and you will tell us immediately if anyone threatens you, in any way"
"Yes sir" i tell them my head bowed.
"Promise us Tara" Matt demands
"I promise to tell you if anyone threatens me" I reply quietly.
"Good, now where were we" Phil says before pulling my pliant body flat on the bed and starting his tormenting touches again.
"Let's start from the beginning" Matt tells him smiling down at me "stay still Tara unless we tell you to move, this is all for your pleasure" he promises.
I shiver in anticipation as both their hands and mouths start exploring my body.
The took my to the brink again and again keeping me balanced on he edge of pleasure and pain, I had begged, sobbed prayed and screamed to them and each time I orgasmed it was stronger than the last, my body was exhausted and my muscles ached but the aftershocks we still tingling through me and they moved back and pulled the covers back over me.
"Sleep Tara, relax and sleep" Philip said kissing my forehead.
"Sleep baby and dream of us" Matt added as my eyes fluttered shut and I slept.