Broken Wings

Chapter one

~ Hannah's POV ~

I wake up stretching, I hadn't slept well that night. But at this point it was normal. After what I witnessed in wall Maria I made the choice to join the survey corps. But the titans attacked again. I fought with Mikasa as we tried to stay strong. I saw the titan, I saw Eren come out of it. I saw it all. There is nothing that erases that from your head. Seeing so much death and just thinking, 'Why wasn't it me instead?' But now is not the time to regret what choices have been made. Getting on my uniform I follow the other cadets as we go to make yet another choice.

Which branch of the military we would choose. I watch as many of the trainees leave as Commander Erwin Smith finishes his speech. Cowards. You can't blame them. They have something to live for. The remaining solute as we receive our new uniforms and change. I watch as everyone reunites with Eren, he was alive. That's all I cared for as I walked away and get assigned a room.

"Alright Cadets! We will see how you do and assign you to squads! First test, 3dm gear!" Erwin shouts as we fix our belts. I hated this part, I always mess up the straps, but now it was more embarrassing, as each of the squad leaders was watching us. Especially me, being the last one there.

"Tch, come here brat. Didn't they teach you how to put these on?" I look up to see lance corporal Levi walking up to me and adjusting my belts himself.

"Y-yes sir they did. Th-this was just the only part I struggle with.." I say getting quieter with each word, my social anxiety was getting the better of me. I run to catch up with the other cadets as he finishes. I have to win this.

"ADVANCE!" Erwin shouts, we all draw our blades and take off, Mikasa and Jean first. Not for long. I whip abover them and slices the nape of the dummy titan they were going for, after doing this many times I was in the lead. I finished with Mikasa but as we were headed back to land my mind blanks out as I looked down, I was so high up. If I don't do anything I will fall. I will be broken. I will see my family again... my friends.. all of them..
"HANNAH!" I hear Mikasa shout, all I do is look up and suddenly I'm falling. In the blink of an eye I hit branches, I wait to hit the ground until arms are wrapped around me and I hear another voice.

"Tch, you really can't do anything right, can you brat?" Levi takes me to the ground where I'm immediately shocked into my right mind.

"What were you thinking?!" Sasha shouts in my face, "you coulda have died-! Wait.. that was the point wasn't it.." she whispers bringing her hands to her mouth.

"N-no.. no, no I'm okay.. I just blanked out, I'm okay.." I smile, I was great at acting when I wanted too. Sadly I did so when I didn't want to as well. No one could ever tell I was in pain. That's how I liked it, but I wish someone would care. "I just need some water.." I say starting to walk into HQ until I feel a hand on my shoulder.

"You know you shouldn't think like that Hannah.. you are going to get hurt eventually, then what will all our comrades sacrifices be for? What about the people who died to save you? You're just going to throw that away?" Mikasa asks, pain in her eyes, she knows what this is like. But I can't let her know I'm like this.

"I told you, I just blanked, I'm fine. I just need some water. I promise I'm fine." I say to her as she lets me go. I hated saying I was fine, but that's all I have to be. Then they won't worry, and that's how I like it. All they need to know is that I'm Fine.