I am nothing but chaos
From the inside out
Though no one could see
It's masked and hidden
Locked away
Hidden behind the mess you call a life
You can't help
I'd never let you
So stop clawing at my throat
Stop telling me to open up
I'm never letting you in
Why?
Because you'll make it worse
You'll get lost in the chaos
You'll try to burn everything
and call that "fixing it"
You can't understand
Even if you could
I won't let you
I won't let you understand
It will only break you
It will destroy you
I don't care if it hurts you
To watch me self destruct
It's worse if I let you in
It's safer
If you just watch
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A/N: Know that when people try to help you, most times they just want what's best. They mean well. please don't just dismiss those that try to help you like I do. I'm writing from a lonely place, one that's miserable. Humans are social creatures, and need interaction with others. I understand if someone is already in a place where isolation feels better, but if you can help it, please, locking yourself away and isolating yourself is not good.
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PoetryNothing more than my word vomit poetry. I'm not that great a poet (as shown by my previous abandoned poetry book) but I just have these poems sitting and collecting dust, so yeah, might as well. Most if not all poems carry a trigger warning (discuss...
