Amateur poetry from an amateur poet

Anxiety

It lies just out of sight

In the very back of my mind

Threatening to swallow me whole

And the worst part?

I let it

I allowed this thing inside

I didn't bother to lock the door

And now it grows here

Its roots planted deep in my mind

It wraps around my brain

All the way down to my heart and lungs

It controls everything

Nothing is in my control anymore

And no one can see anything

It lies right behind my eyes

Just under the skin

Just barely out of sight

Where you can't see

So that you think it's fine

You think it's okay

That everything is normal

That I'm happy

What a fucking joke

While it's forcing me to smile

Its thorny branches are crushing my lungs

So that I can't scream for help

Let go

Please

I can't breathe