Alexis:
This was bad!
The happiest moment of my life was right now.
I was sitting on the bed wrapped up in Mikes arms in complete bliss and yet I was drowning in guilt.
In a way I didn't lie to my brother because I Was at Johns house. And though I am not supposed to be seeing mike anymore, I also Didn't know he would be Here.
My heart was beating rapidly in fear but skipped several beats in happiness. I was Conflicted.
My head laid against his chests listening to the fast beat of his heart.
"What are we going to do?!" I asked my voice shaking from the tears that threatened to spill.
Mike sighed.
"I don't know. But what I do know is that I don't want to lose you." He grabbed my chin and turned my face towards his. He placed a chaste kiss on my lips and I stayed still savoring the feel of his lips as if it was the last time.
A tear streamed down my face before I opened my eyes to stare into dark blue ones.
"I don't want to have to choose between you too." I said and he sighed wiping away my relentless tears "you won't have to baby girl.." he placed a gentle kiss on my forehead.
"I'll make sure of that " he continued.
I sighed and buried my face in his chest.
We stayed there for a bit, just taking in the moment we have with each other.
A tear slid past my eyelid and onto his shirt.
Before long I was full on sobbing. I felt like a cry baby but at the same time I felt torn.
Mikes arms wrapped tighter around me, as he rubbed small circles on my back.
When I finally pulled away, I covered my face as I'm sure I was all blotchy and snotty.
Mikes hands softly pulled mine away from my face, then pressed a handkerchief against my face, wiping away all my tears and snot.
I looked at him in awe as he got up to throw away the handkerchief.
This is why I freaking lo-Like this guy!
How can I make my brother see the mike that I see and not just another version of drew?
As soon as he sat down his hands were back on my face, fingers softly going over my cheeks.
He looked at me with sad eyes. "I don't want to ask you to lie to your brother for me. But at the same time I don't want to let you go. I just got you." He said and I sighed , seems like I've been doing a lot of that today.
"I don't want to let you go either." I said and he smiled softly. "So will you give us a chance? Without the thought of your brother hanging onto us?" He asked.
I leaned in and kissed him softly before pulling away with a smile.
"So that's a yes?" His blue eyes twinkled as his smile widened. I nodded happily letting a giggle escape me.
"Thank God!" He said before his soft lips once again met mine in a bone crushing kiss. I felt this one all the way down in my soul.
And though I wasn't sure how everything would play out, I was willing to go through it with him.
I kissed him back hungrily before I heard a gasp.
"Wow that escalated quickly. To the bedroom already bro?!" Johns voice echoed in the back of my brain and it almost didn't register until Mike pulled away.
He quickly threw a pillow a John who dodged it, but of course he couldn't dodge Sarah's fist.
"Hey! That's my best friend your talking about." She snapped angrily as she roughly punched him twice.
"Ow!! Shoot! I was just playing." he said. I rolled my eyes and stood up, mike following along and quickly wrapping his arms around my waist. My stomach did somersaults as both John and Sarah's eyes quickly followed his movement.
Sarah gave me a wide eyed look while John raised an eyebrow. "so no more Anderson?" he asked and mike scoffed.
"Come on man you know I wasn't going to let that happen." he said as him and John daped each other.
"thats what I'm talking about!" John said excitedly pulling mike into a man hug.
I looked at them crazily and pulled away.
"um I'm still here! Mike don't go around daping John thinking that you control me cause you don't." I said angrily and he lifted his hands up in surrender.
"hey piggy I was just playing" he said a smirk gracing his face.
"Piggy?!?!!" both John and Sarah asked in unison. They looked at me incredulously and I groaned loudly "im out." I said as I quickly stumped out of the room.
"oh come on piggy I mean lexi.." mikes voice trailed after me.
I walked towards the door grabbing my bag on the way and waiting for Sarah who soon joined me.
We walked out towards her car and got in.
She paused for a second before turning to look at me.
"I'm so happy for you!" She said with a bright smile on her face.
"But-" she paused bitting her lips reluctantly.
"But what?" I questioned anxiously
"- we are so dead!" She finished and I let out a sigh of relief. Throwing my head back I looked at her ceiling.
She started her car and pulled away from the driveway.
I brought my head up just in time to see the boys in the door way both waving with a goofy smile on their face.
"I know" I whispered finally.
So many things left unsaid.
So many emotions still running it's course.
Happiness, anger, sadness, confusion.
But one was greater then the rest.
Fear.
Fear that my brother will find out about me and mike.
And fear that mike will find out about me and drew.
I was stuck between two rocks that just won't move.
This was the start of something....
Hard?
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