Turmoil | Spruceworth 5.1 (#Wattys2018)

Chapter 27

Note: I was having a complete writer's block trying to write the wedding, so I skipped to the reception. Lol sorry.

Chapter 27

       Never in a million years would I ever see myself this happy from getting married, let alone marrying someone I had known basically all my life. Ever since he was born, in fact. But here I was, at the reception, officially married to Holden.

       I was so surprised when his parents, mainly his mom, decided to plan everything out so we could go ahead with the wedding the day after. I never thought I would have seen the day where Tara was finally accepting our relationship.

      And even though there wasn't any better feeling in the world than celebrating marriage with the most amazing person in the world, I couldn't help but feel a tiny bit guilty inside because I had a drink last night. 

       And I was starting to crave it even more.

       I wanted to tell Holden, but I was too afraid to. He was always telling his parents how I wasn't going to go back to my old ways and how I was going to stay sober. I felt like I was going to let him down.

       "You seem very gloomy for someone who just got married," Kendra said as she walked over to me.

       "Is it showing?" I asked.

       "Yeah," Kendra said. "Is everything okay?"

       I sighed. "For the most part, yeah. There's just... Something on my mind that I want to tell Holden, but I also don't want to. I'm worried what he'll think."

       "That sounds bad," Kendra said.

       "It's not, really," I said. "Just... I don't know, complicated. Should I tell him?"

       "That's your choice to make, not mine," Kendra said. "But whatever it is, I think you should tell him. If it's a secret you're hiding, you don't really want to start your marriage off with secrets, do you?"

       "Yeah, you're right," I said, but I was still feeling worried about telling Holden. "I'm actually going to talk to him right now."

       I walked over to Holden, who was currently surrounded by Mercy, Lucian, and Castiel. They probably hadn't left his side since we got to the reception, so I barely had time to spend with him.

       "Alright, I know you three love him, but would it be okay if I talk to my husband alone?" I asked my kids. 

       "Fine, whatever," Mercy said, looking annoyed.

       I just chuckled. "Don't worry, you'll have all the time in the world to spend with your new stepdad."

       Hearing me call Holden their stepdad made the kids really happy as they walked away and to Kendra.

       Holden smiled as he looked at me. "I really love those kids."

       "And they love you too," I said. "So... I have to tell you something and... I'm not sure how you'll react."

       "What is it?" Holden asked, sounding a bit worried.

       I took a deep breath before saying, "Yesterday, after I got that text that Roman sent from your phone, I went to the nightclub and I had a drink."

       "You what?" Holden asked. "You're supposed to stay sober."

       "I know," I said. "And I swear, it was just a one off. It's never going to happen again. I was just upset and heartbroken thinking that you called off the wedding."