chloe's pov (feat ethan dolan;) )
"I thought you would never bring that up again." i mumbled.
"we both know we need to talk about it."
"ethan we have already talked about this. you know what i last said to you. we had a deal."
"i know. but the surrogate is almost having it.
"what?!"
"yeah. its been 8 months and 3 weeks."
"holy shit..."
"so we have to decide. now."
"decide what?"
"what we are doing with the baby."
"OK FIRST OF ALL IF I RAISE A KID ITS NOT GOING TO BE WITH YOU."
"excuse me? i am its father! you can't just bring me out of its life!"
"oh really? well maybe the baby doesn't deserve you."
"ouch."
"yeah."
"well maybe you're worse. you were going to leave the baby. you weren't even planning to raise it. you were about to give it an abo-"
"DONT YOU DARE!" i screamed.
"relax. and besides, have you even told your little boyfriend about it?"
oh shit.
"y- yeah," i lied.
"i know when you're lying. you are doing that thing with your eyes."
"ok. so what I haven't told him? its not like it worries him."
"that his girlfriend is about to have a child? pft yeah totally not gonna concern him." he said sarcastically.
"ok i am gonna tell him. but its none of your business."
"it kinda is."
"whatever."
"so what are we doing with the baby? by the way, we both have to agree on the decision."
"who says that?"
"um i do."
"honestly, ethan, i dont know. i feel guilty for it."
"so what? you're just gonna give it up for adoption or foster care?"
"n- no! i would never want to that with a poor kid. the actual fuck. if its my child, I would like to raise it."
"ok then, lets raise this child together."
"no."
"you really think i hurt you that bad?"
"yes."
"THAT IS MY CHILD."
"its mine too."
"then i guess we have a disagreement."
"guess so."
"i.. i miss us chloe..."
"I don't."
"i fucked it all up."
"ya sure did."
"ugh! stop!"
"no! you stop! stop trying to interfere in my fucking relationship. if you haven't noticed i actually like the guy that i'm with. and yes. i HAVE had sex with him. i actually have a whole ass relationship."
"THEN HOW LONG HAVE YOU TWO BEEN TOGETHER?"
"um, almost a yea-"
"CHLOE."
"fine! a day! you know what? not even. but i have known him personally for months. you can talk shit all you want. but i like him ok? he is sexy as hell and i like him."
"pftt. a day? really? and he's already defending you thinking he already protects you."
"SHUT THE FUCK UP ETHAN! you are just jealous that i am over you. well too bad you aren't getting me back."
he looked at me with sad eyes.
"i made a big mistake, because now look who you're with." he mumbled.
"i am with the guy that i like."
"why don't I believe you?"
"because you are a mental retard who won't leave me alone!"
"ok you know what? FINE, CHLOE. LOOK ME IN THE EYE AND TELL ME YOU STILL DON'T HAVE FEELINGS FOR ME."
he looked pissed when he said that. it was a hint of anger and worry. i stepped forward one. i looked him in the eye with a serious face.
"I. DON'T. LOVE. YOU. ANYMORE." i told him firmly.
ethan's pov
her words came through me like a bullet. or even a blade. i didnt know what to say, so i just walked away slowly. i went into my car and tears started drowning my eyes. i hated myself. i hated that i ruined my relationship with the love of my life. I completely fucked it up. i hated that i broke her heart. i hated that i ruined something... so perfect. now she was with someone else. she's moved on. i promised myself and chloe that i would never mention what i did to her ever again. it was just.. so fucking bad. like horrible. thats all anyone should know. her reaction to me coming should've explained it all. she hates me so much that she doesn't even want to raise a child with me. i promised the surrogate that i wouldnt involve her in the baby's life. i punched the glass on my window. i looked at my bloody fist.
you deserve it, I thought
