These Four Walls

Seven

"Leigh please, you have to stop this nonsense! I don't want people to know I'm a virgin! Especially not Liam!" I tell my sister's roommate.

It's lunchtime and the girls and I are sitting together for once. Jesy just laughs at my panic.

"Jade relax, it's not a real thing. Leigh's just using it as an excuse to have a party." Jesy tells me.

I sigh out of relief and give Leigh-Anne an evil look. She just giggles and shows me a list of things she needs.

"You 3 need to help buy all of these supplies by tomorrow so we can have the party on Saturday. Got it?" She asks.

Perrie grabs the list out of my hands and she scans it, "Yeah sure thing Leigh." She says to the girl.

"Ladies, how are you all doing today?" I hear the voice I've wanted to hear all day. I look to my left and Harry takes the seat beside me. "Good, yourself?" Jesy tells him.

"Great, now that I got to see all of you." He says and gives me a wink. I turn to Perrie and she gives me a weird look.

"I gotta get started on this list. I'll email you all a copy. See you!" Leigh says and runs off.

"I'm gonna go too, Niall's looking for me. See you guys later." Jesy adds and goes the opposite direction.

"How's Liam doing Jade?" Perrie asks me and I feel my face turn red. "He's good, been busy actual. I haven't seen him at all today." I tell her the truth.

"You'd think he would make time for his girlfriend." Harry snickers beside me. I shake my head. "I'm not his girlfriend." I tell him honestly.

"Oh no? I thought you guys were official." He teases and I laugh nervously. "Well, we're taking things slow. We've just met after all." I say too quickly.

"Well, that's probably a good idea." Perrie says to me and sighs. "Zayn's been a little preoccupied lately. The only time he wants to hang out is when it's in our dorms." Perrie explains.

"Is that right?" I ask, thinking about yesterday when I saw Zayn leaving another person's dorm room.

"Yeah, anyway I should start heading to my next class. My prof hates it when people are late. You guys have a good rest of your day." Perrie chimes and leaves me alone with Harry.

"Taking things slow?" He questions me. I try to get up but Harry places his hands on my exposed thigh. 

I quickly sit back down before anyone notices what he's doing. It was a bad day to wear a skirt. I swat his hand away.

"Harry, stop it. There are a lot of people here." I warn him. "You don't want them to think you're cheating on poor little Liam, is that right?" He laughs at me.

He pulls me closer to him and whispers in my ear, "I know the reason why you can't commit to Liam is me."

I take a deep breath because I know what he's saying is true. He lets go of me and I face him.

"Yeah you're absolutely right Harry. You make me crazy. You make me feel things I have never felt before and it excites me." I say too quickly.

I don't know what got into me to say those things. It took Harry by surprise too, seeing the look on his face.

"What?" He asks me. I lean into him closer, who cares if there are people here. They don't know who I am.

"You heard me Harry. Everything you ever say to me is true. You are the reason why I can't commit to Liam. But I know you're not good for me. We can't ever be together." I tell him as I sigh.