These Four Walls

Twenty-two

It's been 4 days since Harry and I got into the fight. It's been 4 days since we've slept on the same bed. It's been 4 days since I felt his touch, his kiss, or his warmth.

His words hurt me, they stabbed me right in the chest and I haven't been able to find it in myself to forgive him. I don't know what to say to him right now.

I understand it's a big thing to ask from him but at the same time he should want me to spend as much with my dad as I can.

My dad was discharged from the hospital yesterday, just in time for the twins' birthday party.

The girls and I are getting ready to head up to South Shields and they've invited us to stay the weekend and we're all very excited about it.

"So is Harry coming?" Perrie asks me as I finish packing my bag. It's 6 am right now and we expect to be in South Shields a little after noon.

"We haven't talked since Tuesday Perrie. I don't know if he is but I know the twins really want him to go." I tell my best friend.

She offers me a reassuring smile as the front door opens and Harry walks in without a word.

"Hey Haz, how are you doing?" Perrie asks him and he looks at her with a blank look on his face.

"Fine, you?" he asks her as he opens the fridge. I walk towards the sink to wash the dishes and he moves away quickly.

All week he's been avoiding me like this and its getting annoying. "I'm alright." Perrie says and gives us a weird stare.

There was a moment of silence with nothing but the running water in the background.

"Okay, that's enough. You two need to stop this nonsense. Talk to each other and figure something out." Perrie yells at the both of us.

"I'm going to put this in the car." she tells us and grabs our bags and leaves me alone with Harry.

"There's nothing to talk about. I know I can't change your mind, when you're set on something there's no changing it." he says to me and finally looks me in eyes.

But what I see isn't the Harry that I'm used to seeing. The sparkle that were in his eyes are gone, his smile was nowhere to be seen. All I could see was sadness and pain.

Pain that I'm causing him. I walk towards him and this time he doesn't move away from me. He's always towered over me but right now it feels like he's unreachable.

"I'm sorry." we both say at the same time to each other. He opens up his arms and I move straight into them.

He hugs me tighter than he's ever hugged me before. I feel all my worries slowly slip away. My whole body settles in with his.

"I was being selfish. I'm sorry I said all those things to you Jade. I never meant them, I was just hurt." he explains.

My cheeks are wet from the tears that have been threatening to pour these past few days.

"Listen to me, it's okay if you want to live with your dad. You mean everything to me so I want you to live your live the way you want to." he starts as he wipes my tears away.

"I'm not going to selfish anymore, I'm not gonna hold you back. You deserve to have as much time with him as possible. I shouldn't get in the way of that." he tells me.

I shake my head, "I'm so sorry Harry. You deserve the world, you deserve so much more than me. I hurt you, I know I did."

He tightens his grip on me, "I deserve you." he tells me simply. "You are more than enough for me." he adds.