Alexis' POV
"Hey fatass Alexis, You still haven't loss that weight tubby" Jacob laughed hysterically.
This has been happening for years now. I don't even think I'm fat. Why me huh? Why do I have to deal with this? But then again maybe they are right....maybe I am fat.
"Hey leave her alone you asses" My friend Chance yelled at the stupid jocks. He always takes up for me. Sometimes I feel like I drag him down with my problems. But he will never admit to that.
"You know you don't have to do that" I said quietly. It's all gonna be over soon.
"What do you mean it's all gonna be over soon?" "Are you moving" He asked curiously.
"I said that out loud" I said trying to avoid the answer to the question.
"Answer the freaking question" He said getting mad.
"Kinda. Well yeah. Let's just say I won't be here anymore. That's it. Let's leave it at that." I said as the bell rung.
"I have to go. Bye" I said while walking away.
"Text me please" Chance said as I ignored him.
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I went straight home after school. I honestly felt bad for leaving Chance like that. He's my best friend yet I left him like he meant nothing to me.
But after tonight he won't have to worry about me anymore. No one will. Not even me. Tonight is the night I make everything better.
Nobody would miss me right? It's just everyone already thinks I'm a fat useless area of space. So why not get rid of the space. Wouldn't that make everything better?
I went straight to my restroom after thinking about it more. I took of my shirt and pants and just stared at myself in the mirror, stared at all the disgust that has caused people to not care. Not even my parents care. I barely know who they are. I bet they weren't fat like me, no one is fat like me.
The only thing that blinds the fat is the scars. All the scars I've given myself over the past 3 years. On my stomach, waist, arms, wrists, legs, hell even my ankles. All the pain I've caused myself to blind myself from the true pain from others.
I stared at the blade one last time before picking it up. I was crying, and I didn't even know why. I wanted this, many others wanted this too. So why am I crying??
I firmly gripped the blade and slit my wrists hard and deep and watched all the blood flow out. All the pain leaving my body as I went numb.
Things slowly started to fade and go black. I could have sworn I saw someone come in the restroom but hey it's too late.
"NO NO NO you aren't leaving me yet!!! Please baby don't do this!!" "She's in here!! Help her she's dying!!"
