No matter what

Of course I miss Alex

1 hour before the show starts

"Tabitha, do you want to watch the show from out there or do you want to stay back here?" Perrie asked, "can I watch please?" Tabitha replied, perrie nodded before telling Paul so he could sort Tabitha out later on. "You've had your tablets?" Perrie questioned, Tabitha nodded "can i go and see Aaron?" She asked, "yep" perrie smiled.

Tabitha ran off down the corridor to the hair and make up room to find Aaron, she pushed the door open and crept inside, she looked around the room before spotting him sitting on the sofa, "hi Tj" he smiled, "hello" she replied taking a seat next to him, "can you do my hair like mummy's?" Tabitha smirked, she knew that Aaron was tired and thought it would be funny to see what his reaction would be. Aaron sat up slightly, sighed and then agreed. "She's got it wavy right?" He asked, Tabitha nodded. He quickly did tabithas hair so that it matched perries, "seeya azza" she smiled as she walked out the door, "later tidge" Aaron laughed.

Tabitha ran back to perrie with a beaming smile on her face, "mummy Aaron did my hair just like yours!" She smiled. "Oh baba you look gorgeous!" Perrie giggles giving her daughter a quick hug. She got her phone out and sat Tabitha on her knee, "Leigh could you take a picture?" She asked, Leigh-Anne nodded before grabbing perries phone and snapping a few pictures of the two. "Thanks babe, me and Teej are gonna go for a little walk" perrie smiled as she walked out the door.

"Teej?" Perrie spoke softly, "yeah?". "The lights in our performance are very bright and they flash a lot, and I really want you to enjoy the show and get to watch it but it could trigger a seizure and I'd feel much more at ease if you watched from backstage or in a private box with someone, it's up to you but I wanted to warn you" perrie sighed, "Oh" Tabitha whispered, her eyes were fixed to the floor and before she knew it tears were rolling down her cheeks, "Oh princess I didn't mean to upset you! What's wrong" perrie cooed, "I-I don't want to h-ha-have a seizure. It's scary mummy" Tabitha cried. "Ok baba. Shh, come on let's sit down out here" perrie said walking Tabitha out of the building. "Shh, deep breaths baba. That's it. Well done" perrie smiled softly. She wrapped her arms around Tabitha and gave her a comforting hug, "you've had your tablets, so you should be okay. But I would prefer it if you were in one of the private boxes" perrie said, "will the lights affect me up there?" Tabitha asked, "possibly, but you'd be safer up there than you would down at the bottom. Or you can even stay backstage and watch it on the tv in the dressing rooms" perrie replied, "I'll stay backstage" Tabitha sighed, "I love you baba" perrie whispered. "Who's going to stay in here with me?" Tabitha asked, "Aaron probably will, Jades mam and Leigh's sister might stay back here but I'm not sure yet" perrie smiled.

"Come on let's go back inside" perrie said taking Tabithas hand, they walked through the corridors until they got back to perries dressing room, "get anything that you're going to want with you baba because you don't want to have to miss anything" perrie smiled, Tabitha grabbed her phone and a colouring book before following perrie to the green room. It had three sofas in it and four armchairs, perrie and Tabitha sat down on one sofa as did Jesy and harry, Leigh and Andre sat on the other armchair and jade perched on Jed's knee in the armchair. Perrie looked around at everyone sat with their boyfriends and thought about how much she missed her husband. "Mummy what're you thinking about?" Tabitha questioned looking up at perrie, "I'm just thinking about how much I miss your daddy" perrie sighed softly, "I've been thinking about that too" Tabitha whispered, "I really miss him" she added, "I know baba and I'm sure him and the dogs miss us lots too" perrie smiled.

"Girls you're on in ten!" Paul shouted holding the door open for them, "I'll see you soon Teej, Aaron and the boys will look after you".

Once perrie had left Tabitha got her phone out to text Alex;