Her name is Hail (On Going)

Hail 6

HazeLazy Note

Wut!wut! Sa pahinang ito ay nagpapasalamat ako kay Uncle Google. Dahil sa hindi pa ako gaanong familiar sa mga terms ay humingi ako ng tulong kay Uncle Google. Humanista be like: wut!wut! And to my grammarian friends Mercury and Demy sa Lutangerzs wut!wut.

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Depression is the feeling of being helpless
and hopeless. You constantly feel irritated, sad, angry, almost anything and everything makes you cry nothing seems funny anymore, and you're thinking about death or suicide. These feelings won’t go away and will suddenly become so intense that you'll not know how you can handle them. The causes of depression are the people who surrounds you, rumors, and sometimes because of yourself. Those things are called Man vs. Himself, Man vs Human, and in some instances people are dying due to overthinking. They filled their brain with harsh words, bad things and bad thoughts. They are tired getting false hope and being disappointed, they are tired gaining people's trust. It will kill you inside, slowly eats you as a whole and the only thing you'll think is suicide. They are the  prisoner of their own mindset. Prisoners with no windows, no doors, no bars and no space how to breath out and how to go out.

Wala na akong naging balita pa sa kanya, simula ng makalabas siya sa ospital. At bawat araw, linggo, buwan, at taon na lumipas ay lagi kong pinagdarasal na sana magcross ulit ang landas namin I never get tired of praying for that time to come. Lagi rin akong dumadalaw sa lumang bahay nila hoping to see her there pero wala maski ang kinilala niyang pamilya ay wala rin. Minsan nawawalan na ako ng pag asa na baka wala na pala akong hinihintay, na sa tagal at haba ng panahon ay wala ng patunguhan. I badly miss her.

"Hey! Marx, nakatulala ka nanaman dyan"

I suddenly came up to my senses because of her snap.

"Yeah! I'm  sorry madami lang akong iniisip"

"Iniisip mo nanaman siya?"

I just nodded what's the point of lying kung alam niya din naman at sobrang kilala na rin naman niya ako. She's like a younger sister to me.

"So ano yun, Marx history repeats itself nanaman, papayuhan nanaman kita ay nako! Sawa na akong magbigay ng payo sayo. Alam mo kasi Marx hindi naman talaga siya madaling kalimutan kasi syimpre mahal mo nga diba? Pero tama naman na! Hoy! Nakikinig ka ba?"

"Yuh! Yuh! Yuh! Ang dami mo nanaman kasing sinasabi Dennise"

"E kasi naman totoo lahat ng sinasabi ko......"

Napangiti na lang ako out of nowhere, kahit na ang bigat bigat ng nararamdaman ko she never failed to make me smile. Hinayaan ko na lang siyang magdaldal ng magdaldal matatapos din naman yan. Natutuwa talaga ako sa batang tuh, she's in her 2nd year college taking up BS Psychology.

"Oh! Ano gets mo ba?"

Kahit na wala akong naintindihan sa pinagsasasabi niya ay ngumiti na lang ako at pinagpatuloy ko ang pagbabasa ko at research about Depression. Dahil ito ang napili ko para sa final defense namin, this topic reminds me of her kaya ito ang pinili ko dahil mairerelate ko yung sarili ko dito lalo na yung kalagayan niya  she suffer depression. I wonder,  kumusta na kaya siya ngayon. Magaling na kaya siya? Hindi na ba siya naglalaslas ulit? Di na kaya siya ginagambala ng nakaraan niya? I really want to know how she was doing, and where she is.