Just Friends (Bring Me The Horizon Fanfic)

Chapter 20

Oliver was certainly caught off guard by the kiss, but within a few seconds he responded. He bit down on my lower lip and his tongue took full control. I let out a slight moan and his hands grazed all over my back and he grabbed my ass. I kept pulling myself closer and closer to him even though that wasn't possible.

It felt like eternity while we were in our make out session, but I never wanted it to end at the same time.

"God, I've been wanting to do this forever." Oli says as his lips leave mine and he slowly kisses my jaw.

I can't help but think how Matt never made me feel this good by just kissing me. Then I abruptly pull away. Oliver is completely caught of guard by my sudden movement.

"Oli, this... this is so wrong. I....I can't believe I just cheated on Matt. Holy shit!" I grab my face shaking my head slowly.

"I realize that and I shouldn't have done anything either." He says trying to console me, but it does nothing.

My mind is still reeling. I did not just do that, but I did. Oh my god am I such a bitch. Matt trusted me and I completely betrayed him. With his friend. I feel sick.

"Hey Melanie, you okay? You look really sick." He slowly lets out.

"I am sick." I say. "I'll, um, catch up with you later. I need to sort things out immediately."

I slowly walk over back to where the whole party is and I immediately spot Matt. He's involved in conversation and looks so happy.

How am I supposed to do this?

Should I just walk up to him and pull him aside? Should I wait?

Oh god. Why? Why? Why did I EVER let myself get into this situation?

An unknown force forces me to move my feet towards him. Matt spots me immediately.

"Melanie, baby, what's wrong you look sick?" He says his faced laced with worry.

"Can I have a moment with you?" I let out in a whisper.

He shakes his head and I grab his arm and lead him to a corner. It seems like I'm walking in slow motion as we arrive. I don't feel well. Everything is spinning and the way Matt is looking at me is making feel worse.

"I don't know how to go about this honestly, Matt." I begin rambling. "I never meant to get myself into this situation with you. Especially with you. God. You're such a great guy and I don't deserve you. I've really hurt you and I just can't even stand myself right now. I should've come clean to you in the beginning. I don't know why. I've always trusted you and considered you a great friend and honestly I think that definitely what we need to be is just friends because honestly I'm falling for Oliver and I just kissed him and I'm such a horrible person."

I can feel the tears slip out of my eyes and fall down my face. Matt's face is unreadable.

"Nicholls," I let out trying to see if I can get something out of him by calling him by my favorite nickname of his. "Say something, please."

"Honestly, Melanie, I am very disappointed. I trusted you and you broke it. We weren't together for that long at all and I always did know Oliver had a thing for you. I think I only had feelings for you because he did, y'know. I mean you are a great girl and all, but not for me." He replies.

"Oh, okay. So how are we going about this now?"

"I guess we'll just have to figure that out now."