Dead Wishes

Interrupted mistake

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Cameron's POV

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For the past 2 weeks I have been thinking about what Everdean has said. School on the other hand was just the same but I isolated myself and just focused more on school. I hope fall break comes sooner fast. The house was quiet because mom left and hasn't returned in a while. Clarity is worried but I think she's okay. We always stay by each others side but these past two weeks I've been ignoring her. The sun beamed through the curtains as I opened them. Clarity already took of walking to school. I hope I can make this all up to her next week. I grabbed my bag and phone before leaving. When I was walking to school Everdean came up to me. I completely ignored him because the only thing I was focused on were my thoughts. Everdean seemed to have just dealt with the fact that I was ignoring him. We walked in silence for a good 5 minutes until he finally said something. " Hey Cameron how are you doing?" Everdean had seemed a bit sad maybe because I Ignored him but it can't be that.
"Hi Everdean I'm doing okay. How are you." I smiled but he seemed worried. "Did your nightmares stop?" Everdean asked looking up. He knew about my nightmares. They haven't stopped and I'm getting worried that it won't be stopping anytime soon. How could Everdean possibly know. "No they didn't but how did you kn-.''
"I'm sorry I'm bugging you Cameron just. Never mind all this I'm just thinking is all." Everdean said putting his hand on his pockets. We were almost to school. We just had to walk through the park and about 3 more blocks. It was 7:38 AM so we had plenty of time to make it to school. There was an empty bench just up ahead so I ran to it and sat down. Everdean looked at me and laughed, "I'll see you at school."
"Sit down and talk mister." I said a little demanding and laughing at the end of it because I can't be serious. He laughed but finally gave in and sat by me.
"Are you okay? I mean I'm also sorry I pushed you into the water."

"It's okay really Cameron.  I'm just being an idiot right now. I hope your nightmares end soon."

"Everdean why are you so worried about me and how did you know about my nightmares?"

"Just a hunch." He said with a small laugh. "Oh yeah I'm sorry but I won't worry about you anymore if that bugs you."

I didn't know what to say but it was nice that he actually was worried about me. The only person to ever worry about me was Clarity.
"It's okay Everdean really. Actually very few people worry about me."

"Cameron are your nightmares the same?"

"Th-they are getting worst and J just want them to go away." I looked at him and he was just staring at his hands.

"I hope they do stop. I've had nightmares and the same problem you're in before."

Everdean went through what I am going through right now. How did he even stop his nightmares or are they still happening? Something is up with Everdean but I can't help him.
"You had nightmares before?"

"Yes Cam and mines haven't stopped just yet. I'm still trying to end it." Everdean smiled at me. He was so calm and happy. This is why he isn't falling apart like me. He just stays the happy cute jerk he is so it won't bother him. Wait did I just say he was cute!? No that's impossible I meant clueless.
"Cameron are you okay?"

"Oh yeah I'm fine. I was just you know over thinking about something. Everdean how do you cope with."

"School. We're going to be late!" Everdean yelled a bit and I quickly looked away from him. Did we really talk that much. It didn't feel like 45 minutes it felt like 10. I quickly got up and we started to run to school.

"We have 1 minute and 10 seconds to get to school." Everdean said while looking back at me. I am so out of shape I can't run 2 blocks in 1 minute even though it's not far.