Them and I (On Hold)

Chapter 6

I don't want it
I don't want it
I don't want it

"LET ME OUT!!"
"LET ME OUT!!"
"LET ME OUTTTT!!!"

Panting.
I couldn't breath as I fell onto my knees off the chair I once sat in. Not like this, I didn't want this. I didn't want her out, it hurts, it hurts so much.

Cracking.
Laying on the floor I couldn't help the whimper that passed my lips as I felt my bones cracking, my hand spasmed outward trying to grab my toiletry bag so I could get my injection.

"UGGGGGHHHHG!!!"

My eyes began to blur; glasses cracked from the impact of hitting the ground. I don't want this. Every-time I let you out, I end up getting hurt and you know it, I almost die or worse, the last time I shifted we had became rogues because of you.

"Then you will die as well as I will, you have kept me locked up for so long for what reason Elena. That reason isn't good enough for me, you do not have to feel disgraced because of our fur, you should be honored"

You know exactly why, that day. That day all I wanted was taken away from me because of who I used to be. I don't want it, so if I have to die then we die. This isn't an honor this is a curse.

"You would let our mates fend for themselves knowing who you are, you would let another person touch them after seeing you, after seeing us after EVERYTHING KOR'ELENA, AFTER EVERYTHING WE WERE THROUGH YOU WOULD LET OUR SOULMATES DIE BECAUSE YOU ARE AFRAID OF LOVE, BECAUSE YOU ARE AFRAID OF THE PERSON YOU ARE, BECAUSE OF ME BEING YOUR WOLF. YOU ARE A COWARD!?!

Pounding.
"Aaahahahahhh!!"

"Kor'elena !!"
Hearing pass my pain, my nose flared at the scent that flooded the room as the door opened. My eyes looked over theirs as they both watched silently, seeing my hand still trying to get the needle. No longer then a second it seemed as if they put everything together, with one bound it was snatched and thrown to the ground after squirting the substance that was held inside out and inhaling it to identify the scent and from the growl and whimpers I heard, they weren't so pleased with the identity of it. I didn't want this for those reasons but I more so don't want to hurt them but since  I have been here all they have done is hurt me. Imagine if I just let go, how much pain I'll be in because of them and how much they'll be in because of me, the moon goddess chose the wrong mate for them and but the look on their faces they know it.

"This whole time you knew, you- you tried to reject us before you gave use the chance, before you even known us, you rejected us by suppressing your wolf, all this damn time we could have been held you in our arms,  as ours !!!"

I couldn't anymore.
No longer could I hold onto what control I had, if I did I would surely die in pain trying to force the change from happening and at that moment the look in their eyes made me not want to fight anymore, I had no will left to hold on.

"AHHHH!!"

Tears rolled down my cheeks that were now  replaced with what I assumed to be fur as if felt it burst threw my skin. My face held more pain as my skull morphed into a canine facial  structure my hands weren't as they were but paws instead, knowing the change still wasn't over I sat in pain with a hooded gaze, eyes trained to the white fur that cover my new legs and arms, the fur I hate so much.

"Thank you, it was time you let it go Elena...just let us be happy for once, not just for myself but for you too, I love you and we need this more then anything. Sleep our mates will take care of us for now and do not think lowly of them, they do not hate you "