I'm Insane

So, recently...

So. 

Recently I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. My grandmother still doesn't believe me.. She says i'm always so happy, so it's impossible. Dear god, I'm just putting on a mask. She forces me to go to huge neighborhood gatherings and have a feast. But I'm just not hungry anymore. 

Ever. 

I feel like I always have to be perfect, that pinky little perfect princess. But I'm broken. I'm sorry, Mom and Dad.. I'm sorry for being so fat. I'm sorry for being so ugly. I'm sorry I'll never be as beautiful and kind as you guys. I'm sorry I'm so worthless. 

I'm sorry, Mom and Dad, for existing.