pink skies // donny pangilinan

twenty-four

Billie

Until now, I'm still shook about what he said last night. At first, I tried searching for any signs that he was just joking but I didn't found any. We weren't able to talk it out last night since it was getting late, I told him that we're going to sort things out today. Today, gosh I'm so not ready.

I packed my extra clothes for training because we are going to train the whole day before the APAC on Monday. Today is the last day of training before heading to Vietnam. I've got two problems today, 1. APAC is happening next week and 2. Donny and I are going to talk about what the freak happened last night. After breakfast, I head to the van and we're off to school.

It is a cloudy day which gave me an average mood, not that I hate cloudy day but it should've been a rainy day to lighten my mood up. I slid the door close when I walked towards the lobby, my mood changed quickly.

"Hey, BJ!" his voice gave me a damn goosebumps. I looked at his direction seeing the too tall smiling boy.

"Hi," I greeted with a little smile. Ghad, why did I sounded so awkward?

"Uh, about last nigh-"

"I know, binabawi mo ang sinabi mo. I knew it was kind of misunderstanding, or like you're taking back what you said since you were wrong about me." Walang preno kong sulpot.

He furrowed his brows, "Huh?" I pursed my lips with his reaction. From a confused look, he gave me a smirked. "I wasn't planning to take it back, it is true."

I gulped, my heart is damn beating so fast. Nervousness filled my system. Wait, did I say nervous? Yes, I am. I'm so fucking nervous right now.

"I really like you a l-"

"Dons, if you're saying this because you pity me for not dating anyone then don't."

"Of course not, uhm, maybe yes... or no." he shrugged then I motioned to walk away but he stopped me. "Listen, I've been wanting to tell you but destiny won't let me."

"Then destiny is telling you to stop because it won't work out."

"Why not?"

"Because..." I paused and sighed, "Hindi naman ako kamahal-mahal, Dons." I shrugged. "Maghanap ka nalang ng iba, y-yung mas bagay sa'yo." I walked away heading to the stairs.

"Let me." he raised his voice enough for me to hear him. "Let me love you, let me prove it to you."

I didn't respond, instead, I kept heading upstairs. I knew if I'd let myself loosen up with the topic since I liked him way too long already, I know I'd lose it. Hindi naman kasi ako kamahal-mahal, hindi naman rin ako deserving na bigyang halaga kasi sino naman ako. Alam ko kasing kapag sisimulan ito, magsisisi lang siya at iiwan niya ako. Kaya't matatalo at matatalo lang talaga ako, ayokong masaktan kaya mas mabuting huwag ng simulan.

"Beej, are you okay?"

"Huh?" I fixed my hair then nodded, "Yeah, I'm fine. May iniisip lang." We're here at the office, waiting to get our jerseys for the upcoming APAC.

"That's what I thought, napakalalim nga ng iniisip mo eh. Feel ko kasing lalim ng infinity pool." Karina answered.

"Edi wow, ikaw na yung magaling mag-estimate." She just laughed then I pokered face.

It was the afternoon, when we had our orientation about what's going to happen to us in Vietnam. Buong umaga kasi kaming nagtraining kaya ngayon ay pahinga na physically. After the orientation, I decided to look for Kobe, I really need someone to talk to about this love stuff. I head to the school gym because I know he is always there.