hatred // chris schistad

twenty-one.

MANDAG.

alex walks into school, focusing on the ground as she listens to catfish and the bottlemen in her earphones.

in the corner of her eye she sees chris, he stops himself from going over to her. he just stays next to william.

'walk over to her.' says william looking at his friend.

'i can't.' he says watching her walk in the school from a distance, looking away when she's out of sight.

'you really love her don't you?'

'yes i fucking do! i've never felt this way about anyone before. and i've never felt this before, being loved by someone. my entire life i've been abandoned and lied to people by people i thought i loved and trusted. and because of that stupid bet, i've lost her!'

'hey alex.' says a familiar voice behind alex as she gets her books out of her locker.

'hi sana.' she says with a small smile. sana is one of the few people she was actually looking forward to see back at school.

'i know it's none of my business to know but noora told me everything. if you ever need to talk about it i'm here okay?'

'thank you.' says alex then the bell rings. sana and alex walk to class, girl chris walking towards them with a huge grin on their face.

'sana! alex! i've missed you both.' she says giving both girls a hug.

'how was america alex? did you and chris have fun?' she asks and both girls look at each other awkwardly.

'chris, the thing is-' sana starts to say.

'yeah we did, it was great.' says alex quickly making sana look at her as they walk into class.

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it's lunchtime and alex is walking by the canal alone,  she couldn't face the talk about what happened during their holidays. she walks along the canal, earphones in her ears as she notices a figure sat alone on the bench in the distance. she walks over to the person and sits down.

'hey.' she says looking straight ahead as the person looks at her in surprise.

'alex?' says chris in surprise.

'it's my time to talk.' she says eventually looking at him.

'i'm a teenager, an idiot teenager who's fallen in love. let's be real, what the fuck do i know about love? but what i do know is, the feelings i have for you are real. what we have is something so rare and pure nowadays. if someone told me this time  last year, i was going to move to sweden and fall for a guy called chris i would laughed. i've thought about this deeply, and i can't let what we have go to shit. i've fallen for you chris schistad, i don't know why or how but i have. it must be that stupid smile of yours, or the way your  stupid eyes sparkle in the sun. ot it's your stupid-' alex says but she gets cut off by chris's lips on hers.

'are you done calling me stupid?' he says with a smile.

'i hate you.' she says laughing and slapping his arm.

'that's not what you said like 5 seconds ago.' he says with a smirk before cupping her face and kissing her once more.

'so i'm guessing this makes you mine again?' says chris looking at her and smiling, taking her hand and intertwining their fingers.

'yes it does.'

'i love you so fucking much alexandra.' he says.

love can make you happier than you've ever been, sadder than you've ever been, angrier than you've ever been. it can elate you and deflate you almost at the same time.

'also chris, i have something i've been willing to tell you.'

'and what's that?'

she looks down, bites her lip and looks back at him.

'i think i'm ready.' she says nervously.

'ready for what baby?' he says confused.

'to do it, you know my first time.' she says and chris eyes widen. he definitely wasn't expecting that.

'oh are you sure?'

'yes, i couldn't think of anyone i'd want to do it with other than you.'

'well if you're sure baby, i mean it's up to you and all. we can schedule it so i can plan it and do something special first.'

'i want to do it now.'

'now? are you sure?'

'i want you to make me feel something, i've never felt before.' she whispers into his ear.

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chris and alex skip school and go straight to his appartement. chris took noora's advice and cleaned the place up.

they quickly walk up to the apartment, alex barely has time to shut the door behind her, he's already pushed her up against the door.

'you said you wanted to feel something you've never felt before.' he says before his lips move down to her neck.

'and that's exactly what you're going to get.' he mumbles into her neck. she moans while running her hands through his soft brown hair. there isn't a single part of her that is refusing what's going to happen.

'but don't worry baby girl, i'm going to make it special. you know, you're not my first but i'm going to make sure i'm your first and your last.' he says with a smirk, picking her up, legs wrapping his waist, and taking her into the bedroom.

i'm so sorry i've been so inactive on this fanfiction omg i haven't posted in nearly 4 months! i'm trying to get myself to post more as i need to finish this fanfiction soon!