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What even is love? Love is caring, sharing , feeling butterflies ... love is waking up at 7 am because you can't stop think about someone. I once loved someone. But sadly, he didn't love me back. He said he did though , and I fell for it.
Some people say those three words as soon as they "like" someone... I'm not like that. My parents left me as soon as I turned eighteen. I never had anyone. My friends hated me and no one showed me any sign of attention. That was until I met this guy. His name is Shawn, Shawn Mendes.
We were right for each other. You know that feeling when something happens and you keep on replaying it in your head? Well, something happened. Shawn told me he loved me, a lot. Between kisses, during sex, literally while doing nothing. Even during fights he said those three pretty words. I believed those words. That was until last summer. It's been five months since I last saw him. He left me. I woke up and he was gone. No note , no call, not even a single message. Nothing. I know that hes busy with life and shit like that but I mean... why?
You see, Shawn is famous and he absolutely adores his fans.. so when he told me he didn't want anyone to know about our relationship , I was okay with it. Sure .. it hurt that MY boyfriend didn't want to kiss me in public. He didn't even want to hold my god damn hand. In the past 5 months I have been trying to get over him and literally nothing seems to work. I keep on wondering what I did wrong and if he'll ever come back to me.
Is it weird that I expect him to come home to me every single day? Maybe it was for the better that he left... he could have any girl in this world , not just a slob who doesn't have a huge social life. I have one best friend , she's here everyday to check if I'm okay. I checked Shawns tour schedule last night to see when his tour ends.. he is supposed to come back to Toronto today. I'm not over him yet but you know, I'm angry at him for leaving me but I'm even more angry at myself for believing that a person like Shawn Mendes would love me.
Me and my best friend Emily decided to go shopping today.. I haven't been in a real shopping centre for ages to be honest. So here I am, in a fitting room , trying on new summer clothes. It's bloody hot today so maybe this wasn't a really good idea. Literally , my sweat is like pouring out of my pores. Gross right?
Once I found the right shirt to match my new shorts my Emily ran over to me. "Shit.. fuck y/n, shawn is here, fuck I'm so sorry I didnt want to take you somewhere where he would be, omg I'm so stupid". I just looked at here with wide eyes. The oxygen was pushed out of my lungs I couldn't breath. He was the only air I wanted to take in. I got angry, scared , sad I just want to get away from here. "Let's get out of here okay? I don't want to talk to that him today"..
I paid for my shirt and turned around when I felt a hand on my shoulder.
Holy fuck.
Please tell me what you think of this? Would you like me to series? I'm sorry that I'm not active anymore.. I really want to get back on here x
